Yeasterday was an extremly good day. I was home to stay overnight and the weather was beautiful. It is full summer. I did a lot and managed to write for hours in a novel i write. I went to bed happy. And woke up depressed. I was totally out of fatigue and the thoughts cirkled around in all i should do and not manage to do. I went for a walk by the seaside and it helped for some hours. But i know i can be depressed, but life is not all sunshine. And a thought from a book by Louise L Hay got to me : " A thought is just a thought - you can change it. " I have prayed the whole day today and it helps to get away the depressive thoughts. And i just got a good warm long shower and dressed in comfortable clothes. It helped. Life is worth living and i hope the next coming day will be better.
Persephone is so tame now that she walks in on the kitchen and is not scared if the door gets closed. I tryed to hush her out yeasterday and she just looked at me and stood still and looked like : " No, i dont go outside, i want to stay inside the house. " And i let her. She loves my son and talks to him in the cat way. She makes noices and is cute. She has moved her kittens beside the house, so it will be easy for them to get food.
Life is like it is. I have a son that loves me and huged me today and talks with me all the time. He is so uplifting that he works better than medication. But i cant have him beside me all the time. He needs to live his life. I love him so much. I get happy just to think about how good he is.
I write not much today and hope you all have a good time. I go to bed with a book now and hope for a better day tomorrow.
" Have a great day- you deserve it. "
torsdag 5. juni 2014
mandag 2. juni 2014
Beetroot and Cabbage Juice against Cancer
Last time i wrote about my father. He has gotten a brain tumour and after the situation he is doing very good and we are happy for that. They have gotten the recepies for juice with me and they are juicing a lot. I did not know the words in englis for the vegetables last time but here they are it is Beetroot and Cabbage. The juices are easy to juice. The recepies are here :
2 Beetroot
2 carrots
1 apple
1 orange
150 gram of cabbage
Juice it together and drink it fresh. It is a juice recepie that is good for the immunesystem and the cardiovascular system. Everybody can drink it.
You can make youre own recepie with what you desire in it but beetroot and cabbage needs to be in it.
" Have a great day and life is presious - enjoy it ".
2 Beetroot
2 carrots
1 apple
1 orange
150 gram of cabbage
Juice it together and drink it fresh. It is a juice recepie that is good for the immunesystem and the cardiovascular system. Everybody can drink it.
You can make youre own recepie with what you desire in it but beetroot and cabbage needs to be in it.
" Have a great day and life is presious - enjoy it ".
torsdag 29. mai 2014
Bad News and Good News
These days are though. Three days ago i got the message that my father has a brain tumour, and it has been affective him the last time. It was hard for all the family to get this message. But my father is a fighter and he is in incredible good shape. I vistited him last night and the good news is that there is not more cancer in his body. It has all happende very soon, and my father shal have surgery next week. I had a rough time thinking of him before i met him. Life can be very hard and the reality is that we have to deal with cancer in life. But the medication and the surgery have come far so there is good prognosis to everybody getting cancer. It is all about looking at life and try to have life quality all the time under cancer treatment. I went to visit my father and bought red fruit marmelade from France and original italian pasta to him. I also gave him recepies of some juices that you make at home and they are good in treating cancer. One russian woman living out on the islands treated her husband with this juices and healed her husband from brain tumour, he was given up and was estimated 6 months more to live. But she gave him juices and used a lot of vegetables and cured him. This is many years ago and her husband still lives. There is allways hope. I will get the english names on the juices and the vegetables and put them out on the blog tomorrow. I dont know every word in english and hope you have patience with me.
The good thing now is that all the family stay together. We had mediterranien dinner last night with food bought in from a market and today we barbequed. I have had good days and stay strong and my father was so happy knowing what was wrong and that there is something to do with the tumour. It is serious but he fights and was in a happy mood and told stories and jokes. So it was good to see him reacting that way. I read his epicrise and asked him to take Arnika before the surgery, he needs to talk with the doctors first, but arnika shall be good to take before surgery and after to heal faster. But always consult a doctor first.
Last night i could not sleep and stood up and did Qi Gong in the middle of the night, it is a medical program of Qi Gong and it worked good, i slept so good and have been very stable the whole day, it is like something solid has taken place in my body. So i will do Qi Gong and yoga every day. I hope everybody have a good time and has life quality, it is so important to have a life with meaning, even in times with illness. It is important to keep up the good mood. If you are in life crisis or something has happened, allow youreself to feel. Bought the good and the bad, but change over to something positive when you can, it helps you stay strong. In crisis or grieve is every feeling normal. Be youreself and have a good time.
" When life changes - change with it "
The good thing now is that all the family stay together. We had mediterranien dinner last night with food bought in from a market and today we barbequed. I have had good days and stay strong and my father was so happy knowing what was wrong and that there is something to do with the tumour. It is serious but he fights and was in a happy mood and told stories and jokes. So it was good to see him reacting that way. I read his epicrise and asked him to take Arnika before the surgery, he needs to talk with the doctors first, but arnika shall be good to take before surgery and after to heal faster. But always consult a doctor first.
Last night i could not sleep and stood up and did Qi Gong in the middle of the night, it is a medical program of Qi Gong and it worked good, i slept so good and have been very stable the whole day, it is like something solid has taken place in my body. So i will do Qi Gong and yoga every day. I hope everybody have a good time and has life quality, it is so important to have a life with meaning, even in times with illness. It is important to keep up the good mood. If you are in life crisis or something has happened, allow youreself to feel. Bought the good and the bad, but change over to something positive when you can, it helps you stay strong. In crisis or grieve is every feeling normal. Be youreself and have a good time.
" When life changes - change with it "
mandag 26. mai 2014
fredag 23. mai 2014
The Secret Works
In the small spaces in my life the Secret works. Maybe not just like in the movie or in the book. I dont go round and think positive all the time or vizualise all the things i want in my life. Because i dont have the time. But i pray a lot. Mostly for my son to be healthy and safe and have a good life. And he has that, and that is the most important thing for me. I love God, and know he is in my life all the time, even at days with fatigue i know the Lord is with me. I get that in resting and have people around me caring for me.
Today i was home. It is shades of sunny weather. Sometimes cloudy and sometimes sun. It has been good temperature and i have been sitting out having coffe and smoking. I wish i could quit smoking for life. My son disgussed smoking with me today, and he saied : " It is selfish mom to smoke. Think of all caring and loving you and you ruin youre life. " I knew he was right and i saied : " If i could get down on three sigarettes a day i could have managed. " And my son saied : " I dont think you will make it. " It was hard getting this from the person i love most of all in the world. But i consider very hard quitting smoking now. It is not easy doing this during a hospitalisation periode, but i will try. I start this evening with reducing the sigarettes. Sometimes a blessing is covered in honest and maybe hard words. But i love my son, my family, my friends and life. I have so much to be happy for. If i manage to quit smoking it will for me be a huge miracle. So those following me on the blogg will travell along with me to a life without sigarettes. And i will save money. In Norway a packet of sigarettes costs nearly 20 usd. I need to use what i have of will power and quit smoking. We will see how it goes.
Today i also met a friend. She went by my house together with her daughter and theire dog. And she invited me to her, she also saied : " Go out and meet people, there is so many people waiting for you. " It warmed my heart. Because beeing psycotic and having problems in life is not easy. And i feel like i have lost many friends. But my friend told me that many people waited on me and invited me to her place to see her. The Secret works not only in things, but in needs in life. To be social and having people around me. I also met a friend of my mom. My mom went to school in Trondheim city some years ago and got a good friend there. She visits my mom this week and is from the northern part of Norway with reindeer in her garden. She was so friendly and lovable and we talked a lot. I had coffe and cake together with them. My sister also went by my house today with our two dogs. She is kind and beautiful and had a good time in her life. It is good to see that people make it through on a good way in life. And today i sit here writing with a glass of ice coffe and know i had a normal day in a normal life even though it was the day for injection. It is not the best day of the week. But i am thankfull, humble and have a cosy happy state of mind. Life is so good when the sun shines through and there is hope for everybody with a mental illness. It is to hope, pray and to dare to live and go out. And remember on the bad days that things take time and that good days come again.
By the way i have gotten more company at home, it is not just Persephone and the other cats, but also two seagulls. They stand outside and is shouting for food. Today they got the rest of the Lasagna, and Persephone also ate lasagna. She is so thankfull and more cosy than ever.
Have a good time everybody and trust God to help you out. I have a quote :
" When all hope is lost God is there. "
It is to comfort, because i have felt hopeless many times, and has been saved by the Lord above. This was all for today :-)
Today i was home. It is shades of sunny weather. Sometimes cloudy and sometimes sun. It has been good temperature and i have been sitting out having coffe and smoking. I wish i could quit smoking for life. My son disgussed smoking with me today, and he saied : " It is selfish mom to smoke. Think of all caring and loving you and you ruin youre life. " I knew he was right and i saied : " If i could get down on three sigarettes a day i could have managed. " And my son saied : " I dont think you will make it. " It was hard getting this from the person i love most of all in the world. But i consider very hard quitting smoking now. It is not easy doing this during a hospitalisation periode, but i will try. I start this evening with reducing the sigarettes. Sometimes a blessing is covered in honest and maybe hard words. But i love my son, my family, my friends and life. I have so much to be happy for. If i manage to quit smoking it will for me be a huge miracle. So those following me on the blogg will travell along with me to a life without sigarettes. And i will save money. In Norway a packet of sigarettes costs nearly 20 usd. I need to use what i have of will power and quit smoking. We will see how it goes.
Today i also met a friend. She went by my house together with her daughter and theire dog. And she invited me to her, she also saied : " Go out and meet people, there is so many people waiting for you. " It warmed my heart. Because beeing psycotic and having problems in life is not easy. And i feel like i have lost many friends. But my friend told me that many people waited on me and invited me to her place to see her. The Secret works not only in things, but in needs in life. To be social and having people around me. I also met a friend of my mom. My mom went to school in Trondheim city some years ago and got a good friend there. She visits my mom this week and is from the northern part of Norway with reindeer in her garden. She was so friendly and lovable and we talked a lot. I had coffe and cake together with them. My sister also went by my house today with our two dogs. She is kind and beautiful and had a good time in her life. It is good to see that people make it through on a good way in life. And today i sit here writing with a glass of ice coffe and know i had a normal day in a normal life even though it was the day for injection. It is not the best day of the week. But i am thankfull, humble and have a cosy happy state of mind. Life is so good when the sun shines through and there is hope for everybody with a mental illness. It is to hope, pray and to dare to live and go out. And remember on the bad days that things take time and that good days come again.
By the way i have gotten more company at home, it is not just Persephone and the other cats, but also two seagulls. They stand outside and is shouting for food. Today they got the rest of the Lasagna, and Persephone also ate lasagna. She is so thankfull and more cosy than ever.
Have a good time everybody and trust God to help you out. I have a quote :
" When all hope is lost God is there. "
It is to comfort, because i have felt hopeless many times, and has been saved by the Lord above. This was all for today :-)
torsdag 22. mai 2014
Relaxing day
I have been home for over one day and i slept my best night on three years. I was so happy this morning that it was overwhelming. It was so good just to walk around home in a morning robe and have breakfast and coffe. Today i have been reading the whole day " Friendship with God " by Neal Donald Walsch. It is a good book about getting a new perspective on God.
I have baked home made bread today and made Lasagna for dinner. My son made one of the best salads i have ever tasted. And we shared a meal in pure happiness. I recover more and more and is very happy, but i suffer from fatigue and sometimes days can be hard, but i know it goes over and that i have very happy moments when the fatigue is not there.
The Secret works still. I got 5 e-sigarettes from one of my aunts and one jeans and one capri jeans from my mother. And a beautiful flower bouqet from my dad. It is so good that people cares for me.
Today i also went to a stable to visit horses and order a riding lesson, and i got asked if i wanted to borrow one of the horses for 130 usd a month and ride it two times a week. And i saied of course " YES! ". So now i start riding again when the summer vacation starts, it is about one month until i get back in the saddle. The horses was beautiful and we stood talking to them for a litle while. To ride is the worlds greatest theraphy so i am looking forward to a new life in about one month.
" Every Second is a new start - just decide to start all over again. "
I have baked home made bread today and made Lasagna for dinner. My son made one of the best salads i have ever tasted. And we shared a meal in pure happiness. I recover more and more and is very happy, but i suffer from fatigue and sometimes days can be hard, but i know it goes over and that i have very happy moments when the fatigue is not there.
The Secret works still. I got 5 e-sigarettes from one of my aunts and one jeans and one capri jeans from my mother. And a beautiful flower bouqet from my dad. It is so good that people cares for me.
Today i also went to a stable to visit horses and order a riding lesson, and i got asked if i wanted to borrow one of the horses for 130 usd a month and ride it two times a week. And i saied of course " YES! ". So now i start riding again when the summer vacation starts, it is about one month until i get back in the saddle. The horses was beautiful and we stood talking to them for a litle while. To ride is the worlds greatest theraphy so i am looking forward to a new life in about one month.
" Every Second is a new start - just decide to start all over again. "
tirsdag 20. mai 2014
Days Like These
Today i was home for some hours. My son was at work and Persephone held me with company. I feed her with left overs from dinner, and she likes this more than ordinary cat food. And she has given birth to kittens, and she is really skinny. She is more close to me now and not scared of people inside my house, but if they come from the outside she runs away. I hope she manage to get her kittens to grow up this time. She hides her kittens good, i have never found them to give her help. She use to lose her milk early. So it is a hard life beeing street cat. She is so thankful about getting food again that she lean toward my hands and goes around me feets. She has been inside today and relaxed together with me.
I was writing and Persephone laied there all the time. I finished a book today and is to rewrite it tonight and send it to a publisher. I am looking forward to that.
My days are good, but inbetween hard because of fatigue, but side effect medication help me a lot. I have gotten tremour ( shaking ) and it is awful, but i dont have it all the time. It usually starts in the afternoon and continues to the evening. It is hard to be on medication but i havent taken injection on 3 weeks now. It is to get the dose lower.
The summer is here today. And the last days i have been enjoing the sun and wrote in my book and poems. I have to live easy to get the life to work for me. But it is a good life whitout any stress. I have deep meaning with my life and live it cosy with the ones i love. I thank everyday to be alive, because the psyciatric treatment and enviroment can be rough and though. I hope everybody suffering from mental illness can have a happy life, because it is so important to live and set ones own imprint on life.
Yeasterday one nurse told me about a woman with schizophrenia recovering after 10 years of illness and everybody had given her up. But it was enough that one nurse saw her and wanted to help. The woman and the nurse helping her is now teaching others in healing and hope. Dont ever give up on youreself. And the ones without mental illness should learn a litle about mental treatment and how to help someone with a mental illness. It is just to listen to the ones suffering and be there for them, it is easy and people with mental illness is not ill all the time during a day. My hope for the future is better treatment for mental ill people and that they can recover fast.
It is just easy days here and a lot of happiness when i not have fatigue. Then i am just as the others without a mental illness. Its a good life i have and i thank the lord above for helping me out, with family and friends.
" Every day is a new day- live the day to the full. "
I was writing and Persephone laied there all the time. I finished a book today and is to rewrite it tonight and send it to a publisher. I am looking forward to that.
My days are good, but inbetween hard because of fatigue, but side effect medication help me a lot. I have gotten tremour ( shaking ) and it is awful, but i dont have it all the time. It usually starts in the afternoon and continues to the evening. It is hard to be on medication but i havent taken injection on 3 weeks now. It is to get the dose lower.
The summer is here today. And the last days i have been enjoing the sun and wrote in my book and poems. I have to live easy to get the life to work for me. But it is a good life whitout any stress. I have deep meaning with my life and live it cosy with the ones i love. I thank everyday to be alive, because the psyciatric treatment and enviroment can be rough and though. I hope everybody suffering from mental illness can have a happy life, because it is so important to live and set ones own imprint on life.
Yeasterday one nurse told me about a woman with schizophrenia recovering after 10 years of illness and everybody had given her up. But it was enough that one nurse saw her and wanted to help. The woman and the nurse helping her is now teaching others in healing and hope. Dont ever give up on youreself. And the ones without mental illness should learn a litle about mental treatment and how to help someone with a mental illness. It is just to listen to the ones suffering and be there for them, it is easy and people with mental illness is not ill all the time during a day. My hope for the future is better treatment for mental ill people and that they can recover fast.
It is just easy days here and a lot of happiness when i not have fatigue. Then i am just as the others without a mental illness. Its a good life i have and i thank the lord above for helping me out, with family and friends.
" Every day is a new day- live the day to the full. "
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