Somebody Kills Me

I die soon of peoples mental state.

I suffer from suicidal thoughts of all i have been through in life.

My fiancée i had from 1990-1999 and he is educated as a nurse killed me sexually and scared me so much with what he did that i dont dare to be together with a man.

The health care system dont give me a psychologist and only medicates me.

My ex fiancee made love to me in the end of the relationship.

He had already gotten a new lady but wanted me back.

He just fucked me and went out of bed with me lying in tears of what he did and he said :

" Now I Am Done With You. "

And threw me away. I was not done with the love making.

I reacted with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and the way people react after a rape.

I sat in the shower for a long time every day after this for over two weeks and cried.

I can't write anymore.

But people has fooled the world and manipulated me to wanting to die.

He is not kind towards me.

Soon I die of all happening.

Nobody helps me.