Saturday Night

Some people think it is awful to be in a mental institution, but some days it can be good to. Every saturday night they make good food here. Today a patient has made Bacalao. It was very good. We sat by the table for a long time. Afterwards it was dvd time with " Star Wars Episode 1 ".
Psyciatric patients can have a good quality of life if the unit they are in is good. I have had a happy time and is feeling peaceful and happy. The sun is going down here and i sit and look at blue mountains with a litle snow on them. It is a georgeous wiev. I am going to bed soon with a book i got as a present from one of the patients and is to relax this weekend a lot. Rest, kindness and humour is the best way to treat schizophrenia. It can be done. And the patients can have a good life.
I look forward to be signed out to my home. I am not sure when it is, but i hope it is not long before the doctor think i am well enough to go home.
" If you are feeling sad, invite some friends over for dinner.It will make you happy. "

Schizophrenia Test

Today has been a good day. I have been home and Persephone were waiting for me. She was very hungry and not at least thirsty. I give her cat milk and she loves it. It seems like she is getting her kittens soon. And i want to go home from the hospital. Today i took a schizoprenia test and the wierd part. I ended up as not scoring as someone with schizophrenia would have done. But for a year ago it would have been different. Then i probably had scored with schizophrenia diagnose.
It can be okay to take a test to see if you have the diagnose or not, but the test is not to diagnose people, it is just a quiz. But it give a guideline to what the schizophrenia thinking is like. I am out of that way of thinking. But understands how painful it is when nobody around you understand. The best part is to go to group theraphy. Then you meet people who have the same symptoms, but not the same story. And people can help eachother back to life. A regular dayrythm is the essential to get well, and have something to do that is meaningful. To heal from schizophrenia i believe is easy, if everybody treats you like a sane and kind person and with respect and give you experience in life and trips outside. To do something happy is important and to try and do it everyday. It heals schizophrenia to treat someone that way. Stick to youre identity, but remember you can also change to something better if you want to, by setting goals and exercise. Get someone together with you that you trust and want to go the way together with you to healing. To prevent mental illness, get enough rest and do happy things alone and together with youre loved ones. To much stress over a long periode can give anxiety, depression and psycosis. But the thing is you can heal !!!
" Remember to have a good day everyday. "

New Research Schizophrenia and Estrogen / Womens Health

Yesterday i read for hours on the net and came over an article / research project on estrogen and women with schizophrenia. It seems like women is getting sick later than men and it seems like estrogen is the preventive part in this. They have started research on medication to women with schizophrenia because very often a diagnosed woman with schizophrenia get well during pregnancy and some can be worse right before menstruation when estreogen is low. I dont manage to put in the link to the page, but i googled schizophrenia and estrogen and found some articles. It was uplifting because i have a bit low of estrogen and get worse before menstruation, so maybe i can take a different medication and take some tests and get well ? I hope so. I wanted to share this with you. There is more to it than just stress and crisis, because i really dont have a clue why i got ill. I had everything in life and was happy. I just slept bad for 1 1/2 year, and did not take sleeping pills. I hope you can find something out on what i found yeasterday.
Today i have been home and cleaned the refrigerator and had coffe, and feed Persephone. She was not shy at all, and waits still for two neighbours in the 80`s that died last year. She saw someone walking by the house and was looking curious if it was them. Animals can be devoted for years like this when they have loved someone. I had two visits at home today, a neighbour and my sister. I got hugs and good talks. And i look for an appartment or a house to buy or rent.
The sun is bright here and the weather is good, the sea is calm and the birds are flying around singing. It is early spring and it has been summer temperature so we have been blessed after a long winter. The days gets longer by the days, we have the midnight sun here in Norway. It is best up north, but here i am it will get very light in the evenings and early morning in the summer.
Have a nice day, and stay always in hope in finding solutions. Todays quote :
" Never give up. "

Mental Health

Today has been a day of much fatigue. I am inbetween so tired that it hurts. But i stick to my goals even if i get fatigue. Fatigue is when you cant sleep or rest of the tiredness you are feeling. It can come from a lot of things, but in my case it is a side effect of medication. I have spent the whole afternoon reading about mental health. Everybody has a mental health to look after, and today it should have been more up to day how to take care of youreself so you dont get a mental illness. The clue is to do whats good for you and live healthy. To be satisfied with life is a good mental toolkit to never get ill. Some people have a voulnerability to get a mental illness, most common it is a reaction to stress or a crisis in life. Mental illness go away with good help. To have friends, family and a community that helps you out is a good thing, and saves lifes. Never give up someone with a mental illness. It can take time to heal, but all mental illness can be healed. Its not saied that you are going to be diagnosed youre whole life. To read and get knowledge is good and gives security. Today i found a good page on the net : www.psychcentral.com here there is information and test you can take, but remember you are you always. When you are sick it is not all the time, just some periodes of the day. And for them who is well, read to get knowledge to help others. Be a friend or the best mother, father, sister or brother to someone mental ill. It saves lifes to always be kind towards them, even when everything fails, just dont give someone up, there is hope always.
Now i have to go to my room and do 1 1/2 hour of workout, i have to stick to the plan, today i also bought a training diary from :getinspired.no.
I work towards my goal in the small steps.
" Think about what you really can and not what you dont can. "

8000 Hours of Exercise

I was out hiking today, it all was a beautiful hiking trip. And i am getting in better shape. I exercised a lot earlier and has to set a goal for some years. They say 10 000 hours of exercise and you are an olympic athlete, but my goal is not that big. But 8000 hours with 2-3 hours training a day will get my body back again and get out of depression, anxiety and psycosis. The project will go over some years, and i must set goals, write training diary and eat right. It will be exiting to follow this plan, it is to meet the future that i am getting older, but it all is to see how good shape i can get in. I am not in the best shape now, but much of this is medication wich i have some strong side effects from. The project starts from today, And it will be fun to see how it all goes. I have to devote myself to this completly. The thing is i dont comepte with others and never have done that. It is a plan for me to get so well shaped as possible and so healthy that i boost over of happiness. The first thing to do is to exercise and reduce medication - i am on the case. 8000 hours of exercise :-)
" Some exercise is better than nothing- and gets you more happy. "

Primenister visit today the hospital

Today after i got back from home, there was policeofficers outside the hospital. They walked around and looked between cars and looked around. I thought a patient had runned away. And got a suprise when i got inside the unit : The Primeminister Erna Solberg visited the hospital today. She was there to talk to the acute - team, that work with acute hospitalization and homebased nursing. She was to talk to healthcare people, patients and theire family. I hope something really good came out of that because the psyciatric needs more money to heal people. Here we miss work theraphy, but we have a lot of trips outside, and that heals people. It is the best unit i have been to, here is always a good laugh and very much humour, compliments and kindness. They give people time here, and a psyciatric patient need often time, to know it is okay to take youre time. Some people say time heals everything, and i wonder if they are right. So today i have hope for the psyciatric future and that people are beeing heard, when the primeminister Erna Solberg visited the hospital !
I go to bed now to sleep and is ready for hiking day tomorrow. This part of the country is blessed with nature everywhere, and to use it as theraphy is good. To get people out and not in is the clue :-)
" Stay brave- it helps. "

Phersephone and me

Today i went home in incredible good weather, the sun was shining down from heaven, and i had some to does before i went home. A streetcat that walked together with my cat turned up the first day i was home. My mom had not seen her on 1 1/2 year. I thought she was dead, runned over by a car, or taken by people that dont like the street cats. Some of them was put down some years ago. She was hiding a lot after that. And was not much to see. But she knew i was home because of the sigarettes in the ashtray outside, and she probably knew the smell of sigarettes. For some years ago i gave her the name " Phersephone " from a song by Roger Clyne and The Peacemakers. The album " Turbo Ocho " is good, and it dont go to be depressed listening to them. But Phersephone is a beautiful and sad song about a woman struggling hard. And Phersephone always looses her kittens. She dont get milk to them and hide them so i cant find them and help her. One time she came to me with a litle kitten, but i was to go to the hospital for training so i could not take care of him. It was painful, hard and awful to give the kitten back to her. And it is quite a certificate to get a kitten from a streetcat. Here on the islands were i live we really call them wildcats. They are shy, hostile and can bite if you are not careful with them. But Phersephone and the rest of the cats has never harmed me. I was so happy she was alive, that i went to the shop and got her Friskies dry food, Sheba, Omega-3 sticks for her teeth and cat milk. She was so thirsty and hungry, and she is waiting kittens again. I will treat her nice so maybe she can keep her milk or come to me with a kitten. She is very beautiful, long furry hair, all black with a white spot on her chest. She has eyes that are very intense and looks a litle bit never mind, but today they were cosy and sad. She miss my cat " Ståle ", that was here best friend.
I got so happy seeing Phersephone again and giving her care. I hope she moves together with me, but a wildcat/streetcat chooses its life on her own.
I had a good time home and know that streetcats manage through everything. I gave her a lot of dryfood, so it should last to next time i am home. It was a really good time, someone is greeting me home and that is long time missed friends, i wonder where the rest of the cats are ?
Now it is just a comfortable afternoon here, reading and watching a DVD tonight, and going to bed early. " Life is good in the small parts and friends come to you when you least of all waits them. Stay happy you deserve it. "

Live Slowly and get happy

The best part in my life was when i lived slowly. I had not much to do and was extremly satisfied and happy. The thing is we are often stressed. So stressed that it end up in depression, anxiety and for some in psycosis. My best way to get out of a depression, anxiety and psycosis is to live slowly. To turn down the volume of life. The noise of stress. Mental noise of always having to do things. There is a line to find out what you love and walk that way. You end up more peaceful and happy. You dont need a big project to do this. It is just to take a step aside, and find out that everybody loves you still if you dont do as much as you used to do. I read more now than earlier. It has been a dream i had for long time. But every time i sat down to read,  my mind tricked me and there was always something to do instead of reading. I started to read even if i felt to do things, and after a while the to do things stopped. I read more and sleep better. To always have something to do is stressfull, youre mind never relax. Dare to be off line for a while, read a book, go for a walk, or run if you want to, or exercise youre favourite exercise, paint a picture or do rock climbing. Just take some time of and go for a dream you have, small or big and find out that it is just as good as meditation to follow a dream. To much to do is toxic for our minds and our body. If you need to relax and cant find the way to do it, go for a long wanted dream, small or big. Let it take as much time as it has to. Me i am also writing a novel, and it gives me peace to know that 2/3 of the book is finished. If i get to publish a book i have a job ! But the book is so kind that it lives with me while i write and it is so nice to have this hours of writing. And i am healing, by doing my real dreams that i value. Not the shopping for things or go out dancing all night. I want to have real good quality time, and the days turn brighter everyday.
" Live slowly and use the time you need on youre dreams - you will succsed step by step. And turn out more happier, and life change from bad to good or to the better for you and also youre loved ones. Take youre time. "

Never Monday Morning Blues

I have never had Monday morning blues. The reason is that i have been happy all my life. It has been hard. But even at depressed times i knew happiness was not far away. When my son went to childrens school i always took him out to dinner on Mondays to have a good start at the week. We saved money for that day, and he could order what he wanted. The result was that he got the worlds best cacao/chocolate drink. They made it especially for him every Monday. And I got free coffe. I remember the time so good now that it gives me the same happiness.
The clue of happiness. Just follow Baz Lurman. I did and ended up extremly happy. So happy that people wanted to know my secrets for that. And I used my body in every way i could and got 54 kilos. I stopped listening to Baz Lurman, but has started again in my own project of living a fullfilled life. And that is not all happiness all the time. The truth is that nobody stayes happy all the time. There is problems in life, but the best way to have a happy week : " Eat out Mondays ! " Its the best tip to have a great time with youre loved ones. And take youre time to listen to Baz Lurman.
" Have a happy day - you deserve it. And maybe the greatest week of youre life !!! "

The song that changed my life in 1999 !!!

The Happiness Project

I have been home today. And it felt like i had shopped in all new things. I have been away for a long time, and today was just a day with boosts of happiness. To be happy is really easy. It is hard to understand when you are depressed, but find out what makes you happy and go for that. Do the things making you happy.To ask for litle in life is a good thing. It is the golden rule. To much of one thing can make you depressed. Today the day started with bright sun. I was very sleepy, but went outside on the veranda and had my morning coffe and a sigarette. I looked at the wiev and desided to walk in the mountains next year. But i probably can make some hiking trips to the mountains this summer also. Then i asked to go home, and they sendt me home together with a very nice assistant. She is blogging about food, and got some recepies from me. I have a lot of recepies and cook books. I love to make food. And have decided to make a party to the arrival of my son home from a travell all around the world. He is in USA right now for the first time, and love the country. He has been away for nearly two months, and i miss him a lot. But we send mails to eachother and talk on the phone. So he is not that far away. The good thing with internett is that it is easy to stay in touch. I cant wait until he is home !!! Just miss him a lot. He is a great young man, strong and healthy and managing his life on his own :-)
The birds are walking around the unit. They are scared of people walking passed the unit, but not afraid of uss patients. I talked to them and one bird then landed beside me. It is cosy with birds. And they sing the spring in here for uss patients. They make our day sometimes.
At home i went through some stuff, i was looking for my swarofski crystall cross, a present from my brother. It is an extremly beautiful necklace. I got it after a hiking trip in full storm. He knew i survive, and maybe he believed the Lord above was with uss. But i could not find it. Instead i found a ring i thought was missing or stolen. It was my heritage from my grandma. A expensive gold ring with purple stone in it. It is really beautiful. My grandfather insisted on me having that ring from her, because i had loved it all my life. I am so happy wearing that ring. And i have decided to never take it off me, but wear it everyday. I got extremly happy of finding again the ring.
Then i found two books : " The Madonna riddle " ( A comedy ) and " The happiness Project " by Gretchen Rubin. I have not read the book yet, but i decided to get more happy, to find out what i love. And that is the definition on success, to do what you love and get paied for it. But the main thing is to find everyday happiness. And i find it just to drink from my favourite cup of coffe. It is bought by my son in London and have the british flag on it handpainted. It is cosy and nice and it feels like me.
In the car on the way back i decided, what about goals. I have never in my entire life put myself to goals. So i decided to start riding again. So tuesday i will order private riding lessons. I felt happiness by just taking a goal and decide to go for it. Me i have been a drifter, just living life by the minute, and just been kind and nice. I have had a good life living that way. But i am curious to see what happens in setting goals to be more happy and fullfilled, and satisfied.
I know how to set goals and that is to be concrete and have a clear plan and do what takes to reach the goal. The first goal is : " Take riding lessons. "
I am happy and hope you have a happy day. Now i go in to my room and read the book ; " The happiness project. " And make some small goals.
Remember : " You have the right to make goals " becuse you deserve to have the life you dream of, but remember that God is in for surprises, so sometimes the life turn another way :-) To the better !!!
" Remember to count youre blessings. "

Pasta Salad

Tonight i have been standing in the kitchen here at the hospital, and made my sisters recepie for Pasta salad. It is very good and tasty and not at least fresh. They all had just good words ta say about the pasta salad. I got a bit shy, i dont like to get all the attention. But my sister can be honoured for the recepie, she has made it all herself. We made enough for several days.
Here in the unit it is extremly kind and all who works here is always in a good mood, and it reflects over on uss patients. I just wanted to put in some words to honour my sister and the hospital unit. It is possible to have a really good time even if you are hospitaliseised.
Its a calm good and cosy afternoon here, and no depression and just happiness. It is good to see that i still function and manage to make food to several people.
Have a good happy easter !!!
" Remember to be youreself- then the true feeling of happiness occur. "

The way out of depression

To be depressed is hard. So hard that you have to experience it to understand really how hard it is. I have been depressed, very depressed. But is now off antidepressiva and mood stabilization medications. And is free of depression. It is really a miracle. What did i do ? I prayed for years that the depression should go away. I never gave up. I really did not understand why i was depressed, because i have always been in a good mood and happy. But i laughed my way out of depression and off medication. The best part is to not take life to seriously, and start to be youreself again. And hold on to inner strenght. The way out of depression is a very good book by David D Burns : " Feeling Good " and he has another one to : " The New Mood Therapy ". It is good books to work with and the best thing, they really help you understand the way you think. Never give up if you are depressed or feeling anxiety or is in psycosis. There is a life to live. Me, i am still in hospitalization, but it is not all that bad. I look for a house to buy or rent, and not only in Norway, but in Denmark and England. We talk in the unit and have good laughs. The patients are nice, and we give eachother presents and hugs, and laugh together. It is cosy, but the best part is to be at home. And i have started on my way back home now. Yeasterday i was home for some hours and visited my sister and my mom.
It is easter, and not much is happening, but i write and read, smoke and talk and exercise. Life is calm, but good. And i have learned to not ask for so much more.
" Be youreself everyday, you are the best person to be that. "

Sh`bam

Today something funny happened. One of the nurses here exercise a lot and took me with her to the gymnasium in the work out studio. I went on a class of Sh`bam. It is an hour with dancing different dances. It was funny, but my arms and legs was everywere. I laughed a lot. The instructor was unbelieveable kind and explained very good how it should be done. And the best part, i had more stamina than i thought and did not breathe much. I have danced for years, but have had two years now i have not been in exercise, and my body strongly tell that i have to exercise a lot. Sh`bam is good for all the body. And the strange part, some of the nurses told me earlier today : " I think you are brave going to a class with Sh`bam. " They did not dare themselves because of arms and legs everywere. It is funny, but the line between a mental illness and normal can be litle. I was not scared at all going. I was on the other hand looking forward to it, And it is a great feeling now. To dance is good when you have a mental illness ( or not ), it gets you more in contact with youre body, and you can do it at home.I just loved Sh`bam. And it was also the first time i went to a class in a gymnasium. So new things occurs for everybody if you just open up and dare to do it. Life is good and i know it will get better by time. It just feels that way. Happinness is in reach everyday for everybody.
" A new life can start every single second - hold on everyday. "

Health Definition

After some reading on the net i found out that the health definition is to difficult for not health educated people and myself. To work out health scales and evaluate health you need a clever doctor.
In health system there is different health definitions from continent to continent and in some countries, from country to country. I will try to easen people down. To have a good health you can have with an illness also. I have to be careful with this statement. But i met a man on 79 years old in the psyciatry and i believed he was 60 years old. It was by the way he looked and acted, and his physical health was more than good. He eated healthy and went for long walks. And it is not saied you will die early of disease. My grandma on 104 years have been ill several times and also been in surgery. To talk about health topics like this I need a whole book. But to shorten down. Health needs to be evaluated every five year. The body and mind developes and it it possible to work with the body so it starts over new. I have seen people change over night. There needs to be a clearer health definition, and a clearer tool to measure it. It is not only absence of disease.
A healthy life is to live after healthy needs. To nurse youre body with what really is healthy, and it is easy.
There has to be formed in mental health, physical health and spiritual health and a age scale with definition on what is the right health measure for a person on 20 years and one person on 80 years. It is two different lives.
The definition on health needs a guideline. And when people figure out the health scale they will get less depressed and have less anxiety. To have a good health is to be free of disease, or have a treatable disease and a place in the soul with happiness, courage and love.
It is not all disipline, an overweight person can live longer than an underweight person. So all in all, the world needs to calm down and not be afraid or hysterical about pimples, birth marks and hair. There are real problems as cancer, ebola and other sevear diseases.
To have health is to live after youre dreams and reach them. With disease or without disease. Leonardo da Vinci saied : " It is not how long you live, but how you live. "
This is to be continued...
Have a nice day, and good health to you ! :-)

45 best health tips ever

Today it is a cosy Sunaday. It rains outside and it gives me time to relax and read. Today i want to share news from health24. They have written down the best health tip ever, and i think the ones living after them will get very healthy. Today i looked for the definisjon on health, because they dont have a plan for whats normal in a humans life, so i can go off medication. I decided to get so helathy as i can be. I estimate it will take me one year to turn my whole life around. But i am ready, and i am willing to go for it with every cell and fiber in my body. Nothing is as good as to be in good health. I have been that and know there comes a depression together with illness if you have been in very good health. But it is never to late to start being healthy and exercise. I have just come in from a walk. But it is time to buy runner shoes and start running.
Here is the tips for today :45 best health tips ever
I hope you can get in very good health, and live the life of youre dreams, it can be done during an illness periode also.
" Today is the best day to start a new life. "

Milly the Flat-Coated Retriever | Puppies | Daily Puppy

Milly the Flat-Coated Retriever | Puppies | Daily Puppy  Here is Milly a litle puppy i found on the net. It is just like my own dog was. She is worth seeing. I just love these dogs :-)
Have a nice weekend :-)

Exercise

I have just came in the door, and has been to the gym and exercised for one hour on machines. It was well done and i am stronger than i believed. I am on a diet because i gained weight of two types of medication. I changed medication and got better, but the kilograms stayed. I am 91,3 kilos and are going down to 60 kilos. The best diet is to have a dog to walk and run with. I had a Flat Coated Reriever some years ago and was down in 54 kilos by walking and running 3 hours a day. He needed a lot of exercise. It was really the best dog i have ever had, so kind and gentle and not at least funny. A Flat Coated Retriever is one of the worlds greatest family dogs, but it really need a lot of exercise. My dog was tested by the police to get accepted as a drug search dog. But they did not manage to get him agressive. They tried to trigg him in all kinds of ways but he just sat down and smiled. He did not want to leave us. But i had to give him away because i had noone to take care of him when i was to hospitalisation. Even if it was just short periods. My brother has got a new job now and has promised me to guard my dog when i am in hospitalisation, so it is possible in near fututre that i will be owner of a Flat Coated Retriever again. It is so happy and kind dogs. I will get one from the same breeder i got my second Flat Coated from, because the police could not get my dog agressive. He had no agression and was just happy all the time.
I am in the start of blogging and tried to put in a picture of a Flat Coated Retriever puppy. But i did not manage to do that, you have to have patientce with me and wait until i am signed out of hospital i will then share more of my life and my knowledge.
Today the good news is Omega - 3 capsules. 1000 mg-2000mg reduces anxiety. It is a proven test and my grandma on 104 years old has taken Omega-3, 2 capsules a day all her life nearly. She is still going strong. It is worth to invest in Omega 3. It is good for the whole body, and remember to eat fish. I eat a lot of fish at home, and will come back with recepies for making fish for dinner. It is really the best thing to eat. I am very strong still even after long time of hospitalization, the physioterapist thought i was in full job. I have lived very healthy before and exercised a lot, and is now on my way back to life.
Here in the unit it smells extremly good of homebaked bunns, so i look forward to that. Life is so good when you listen and do the small parts in life and is satisfied with that.
" Do something funny every day- it will make you happier. "

Homeless

Today is a day with mixed feelings, but life offers new experiences every day. My mom came to visit me today in the afternoon and had with her baked bunns with icing on. We had coffe and bunns and talked about me and housing. The house i live in now is going out for sale, it is to much traffic around the house for me, i want to a more calm place. But i did not think the house was been put out for sale so fast, so a litle periode i wont have a house to live in. Its not the easiest part, but it is not the end of the world. I get a new experience.
The Mona Lisa was my mom astonished by. She saied : " wow " when she saw it and was very helpfull. She took it with her to frame it for me. It is going to have a broad frame in gold. And i trust my mom will make the choise of frame nice, she has good eye for interiour. It is nice to have people offering help.
I have to quit writing now, we are going out to cut some small tiny branches from a " Selje-tre" it is a special tree that gives small goosechickens as we call the flowers on the tree. It is soon easter and we are to decorate the unit, in all yellow :-)
Life is sometimes mixed with sadness and pleasure, and it is really okay. I am just curious in were i end up living now. It is to be continued.
" Stay in trust that things will work out, it often does you see. " :-)

Rainbow

Right now a beautiful rainbow is in front of me from the litle corner of the world i am writing from. The view from the hospital is extremly beautiful. Seagulls are flying around and the sea is to be seen. Life is worth living. Every single day. It is just to hold on, better times always comes around. There is no need to believe once a mental illness, always a mental illness. All illness can go away, and nobody is just theire illness. There is so much more in a person than just feeling bad, sad, depressed or extremly unhappy. There are bright sunny days, even on rainy days.
Today i was to the gym to get a physiotherapist examin my body and make sets of workouts for me, i did it all on my own and the physioterapist did not know i am ill. She thought i was healthy and in full job as a nurse. I am educated as a registered nurse, and is writing a book about recovering from psycosis, anxiety and depression. It takes a bit of work, but with the right persons together with you it is absolutely possible to recover from schizofrenia and other mental illnesses.
Its just a good day here right now. I have done my weekly shopping and bought Craft exercise gear and new purple shoes today. Also ice coffe, easter chocolate eggs from Anthon Berg and two magazines. I dont need much to be happy. And the days my head work out well i have so good days that sometimes it is better than when i was healthy because i treasure the days so much more. It is a blessing in illness that you learn. It is not the meaning to be ill, but there is tremendous learnings in it if you look at it the other way around. Dont ever give up life or someone with an mental illness or youreself if you have one. Treat youreself nice and keep to youre identity because it is never gone. You are you and have the right to be that.
My dad just were here some minutes ago. We talked about the Mona Lisa, i showed her to him. And it is so like the original that he had to take a picture of her and tell someone has been in Louvre :-) The painting i have is old. I am lucky that i get to study the Mona Lisa every single night i look at her. And she must have been extremly kind and beautiful and relaxed, by the way her face looks, so maybe Leonardo da Vinci was a man getting people to relax, and then he must have been a good conversationer. It can be seen in the paintings. I have study some of his works. And he is an artist that never will stop impress the world. The Mona Lisa is a masterpiece.
It is enough writing for today, remember : " God is always with you if you want him to. "

The Secret book

A first aid kit to make you happy and live the life of youre dreams, and the life you love.

        1. Find out what you love doing in life, and what you want in life, for youreself
            and others.

        2. Make a book with pictures, quotes and youre own notes, ( Be creative )

        3. Start doing the things you love, and get the things you want in life.

        4. Feel fullfilled, calm and happy,
            the best part is that you get to be youre own true self.

        5. Return to the secret book when you lose focus or are feeling sad or depressed
            or in some corner of life you dont want to be.

This is five easy steps to be youreself. It is also a tool to prevent sadness, depression, anxiety, crisis, psycosis and fatigue. Its easy and you can start fresh every day :-)
Good luck changing youre life to a life you love. And the best part is that you can love youreself and have more love to give others. You got youre own book :-)
Good luck and remember : " The best day is today. "

Waterworld

Today is a rainy grey day here, and i bless the rain. And thanks to the genius in the Lord above we have clean water in Norway. It is a miracle that waterdrops falling from heaven is part of us. We need enough water everyday. 70% of our body is pure water. We need it to get the cells in the body to live and communicate. All the organs are depending on water to function in the right balance and circle. We can not live without the waterdrops from heaven.
To drink right can solve many problems. There is health in every drop of water.
Without water you can get headache, fatigue, lack of concentration, to much toxins in youre body and in worse case organ dysfunction.
To drink right can also get away panic attacs, anxiety, fatigue and depression.
We need 2-3 liters of water everyday, sometimes under hard work and exercise you need more water. Listen to youre body and drink right. " Drink water for life, you will not regret it. "

The Secret and Mona Lisa

Today was one of those days i felt " The Secret " around me. I believe it works for everyone, but maybe not the way presented in the book and in the movie " The Secret". I believe God is up for surprises. God surprises us and dont we all love that :-)
I have to tell in my first post that i am diagnosed with schizofrenia, and not sad with that if my life had worked good, at the time it works good. Not on top of the world, but not on the bottom either. It is possible living a fullfilled  life diagnosed with a mental illness. I am tired of medications and a litle bitt stiff in my body as a sideeffect of medication, but there is medication for that too. I live in a different reality, and that is a good reality where everyone can manage to be a good and lovable person, who gets second chances. But the main thing is to be oneself, not somebody else, but the true fingermark God has given you that there is only one of you. And that makes you valuable and precious and not at least loved. God loves you, you know.
Today i went to the grocery store to buy in a litle bitt, not much , some ice coffe and mineral water and soda, a magazine and an orange chocolate. I am hospitalized now, so i get the others food for free, its the good thing living in Norway. Its expensive here, but hospitalization is free for all people in Norway. 
After i was finished shopping i wanted to go to a vintage store, i had seen a picture there of Mona Lisa, a canvas print and it looked like the original, if not Louvre misses the original :-) I had waited for the picture for 14 days, i did not have money the first time i saw it. It costed 60 usd. 400,-nkr. I was sad already going in to the vintage store, i was sure the Mona Lisa was gone. But there it was !!! And i was so happy !!! I bought it, and was sure the secret was around me, to tell me that there is second chances and sometimes God gives you time to wait. You dont need to be in a hurry everytime you buy something, and buy when you have the money.
For me the secret works in the small parts, from free things, to a Mona Lisa worth more than 60 usd. I have a lot of vintage at home, and has found a lot vintage cheap. And believe if we work this way in the secret we can save the world. " Sometimes you get what you need, not what you want. "
Have a nice day, and look for surprises ! :-)
The place i am in now is very kind :-)