Remeber That New Days Come Every Day

Life can get a routine. Remember that every single day is new. There is always something new happening in youre life. And if not - make the moments happen - by beeing you. I am all me again and friends comes a long all the time. And i met people i have not met in years and it is like i met them yeasterday. Everyday i do something new. Not the big things, but i try to make everyday a bit different from the other to make life smile at me. And not at least the most important thing, i am staying kind all the time. I refuse to go into conflicts, and if they happen, i forget about them as fast as possible. It makes you stronger. And when you have learned to make conflicts go away fast you are not worried for conflicts happening. Life gives you all kinds of colours, and paint youre life in the colours you want. You can create the life you want by doing something every day to get there. For me it is inventions and write novels, and paint. Some days ago a picture i painted was in the newspaper together with other local artists. I gave a picture to a welfare organization for a lottery. And i hope the man winning the clovn was happy. I liked the picture a lot. Every day small things can summon up a great life in the small parts of life. And when you as a older man or woman sit and look back on life you can see it has been a good life. Dont let a bad year or a bad day ruin youre quality of life. There is so much love in this world and so many people working for the world to be a better place. It is where we put our focus. Change youre life bit by bit with forgetting insults, bad things happening and conflicts by letting they go in the moment they happen. When you teach youreself this you can se miracles happening in youre life and you get more healthy. Every day brings a new day to you and fill it with joy, happiness and love. There is always things to do to make the world more colourful and brighter. Dont let anxiety, depression or psycosis ruin a good life. Work for the best and you get the best.
" Every day is new, and so are you " :-)

People Are So Kind That I Think I Stay Here Forever

When i was hospitalised i wanted to move to another city, and even to the other side of the world. I studied Australia and Jamaica. I just wanted to be somewhere else. But i was away for years and did not have a clue on what was going on here on these four islands of Giske. But people are the kindest here. I think i stay here forever. I dont want to move and i love this place. When i walk outside i met the kindest people ever. And i have many good talks. You can wonder so much over life but not find it until you are social again. And people forgive. There is so much forgiveness in the world. And you are just a smile away from people that loves you. But people have limits to how social they can be. You dont manage to be with everybody. And that is sad. I wished i had a car and could go on visit all the time. I did that erlier. But i have lots of people also coming to my place. And we have coffe and a good time. There is a song that is forgotten. I had not heard it for years, but started to sing it in hospitalisation because i wanted to play it. And one of the nurses also thought it was sad that this song was forgotten. Here it is : ...well it got to the upper part of the page...but no worries... mistakes can lead to a good laugh. And the secret to restore youre life after sad times and difficult times is to make youreself and other laugh. You can turn around stories and begin the same stories over again by rewriting them in youre memory as just flaws and unhappy things happening. I laugh a lot these days and have just moved to a municipal appartment. It is not as cosy as the house i have lived in but Happy my budgie is liking the new appartment better. She relaxes more and sleeps more. Yeasterday at evening i sat writing with coffe and bisquits and Happy was just relaxing, singing and seemed more well with herself. I have started a new life at a new place with more experiences. I visit my grandma on 104 nearly every day and she is all clear in her mind and is starting to knit. We had coffe and fudge and i asked her for advices. She saied to me : " Never say No and always be kind. " She gave me a neclase with flowers on in silver and i will wear it with pride. I am so happy to have my grandma still. And she reveals the secrets to me of living a long and happy life. Staying strong and just be kind to other people. I have crazy and happy days here in litle Norway. And soon winter is knocking at the door. I have to get back to my appartment now because Happy cant stay so much alone. And i have things to put in place there to get the appartment so happy that i will love to live there. Have a nice day and dare to meet all kinds of people. At the bottom of it all are everybody kind. Just give them a smile and love them.
" Welcome old and new friends in youre life and never stay lonely. There is always someone that cares for you. "

You Dont Need To Be Alone

Sometimes you can feel all alone. It can be hard. Some people have a happy time alone and i am blessed with that. I can find so much exiting to do alone that i sometimes have more fun alone than together with others. But some days i like to be social. And there always is a friend to visit or to come on visit. People dont need to be alone. Everyday there are new friends in youre life if you welcome them in. It is just a smile away and to treat them all with kindness. People can do so much for lonely people. Like James Morrison. I love his music video of " I wont let you go. " People want to care, so let them. It is okay to be voulnerable and not strong all the time. Because nobody is perfect. Be a good friend and kind then you have friends all youre life. And they can come to you on google+, facebook and other places. Create a all new world in youre life by not beeing scared of people. The most of people wants good. And you dont need to be the most popular. It is just to have one good friend and youre life can be saved for good. People are so kind when you smile to them and even kids. I live close to the road and sat behind the terasse door smoking and some kids went by the house talking about me. They saied : " The woman living in that house is kind. " ... " Is she ? " Saied another kid and the first one replied : " They gave eachoter Coke at the hospital. " It seemed like the kindest thing on earth was to drink Coca Cola and i think probably one of theire parents had read my blog of when a patient saved me out from nausea by giving me a glass of coke. It is a easy world and quite simple. You dont need the all world and sometimes a glass of coka cola is all you need in youre life to spread all the kindness in the world. You dont have to capture the moon. It can be found in a bottle of soda. I love the kids walking by the house and they see the kittens living here and everything is kind and cosy. The sun shines in good autumn weather and i have been out bicyckling and had so much joy in my heart that i smiled to everybody. And a good smile can make the day for somebody else. Remember there is millions suffering from a mental illness : depression, anxiety and psycosis. It is hard. But it dont need to be this way. If people just wasnt so scared of beeing themselves the world could have been saved in just 4 weeks. I have always saied this. That if the right persons shows up and give kindness and understanding it would not take years to save the world. Get a close friend and love life. I have all in my life back after years of suffering and is healed from a mental illness. And the world seen from my eyes is kinder than before. There is so much love in the world. Share it with someone you love. And get together with youre best friends. Sometimes all the conflicts happening is just misunderstandings. Solve the problems and forget them and go out walking prouder and with better friends than ever. There is always someone wanting to help you and understand you.

" A New Friend Is Just A Smile Away - Keep On Smiling. "

A Lazy Day With The Kittens

Today have been a lazy day all day in good weather. The Kittens have been here the whole day and i walked in pyjamas until 15:00. The picture of the kitten is here now and i dont have a camera for myself so i cant take picture of them myself. My cousin was over here to look at one kitten she wants to take one to her and her daughter. The kitten is very tame and they look like breeders cats. 

The kittens walks around in the kitchen now and are exploring life. It is raining so they want to stay inside. I have been to the store and bought orange chocolate and ice coffe and have a good lazy time. And i am still full after being on family dinner and my mom made " Pulled Pork " it was very good. My grandma on 104 years was there also so we had a good time. My grandma is always in a good mood. And i love her so much. I did some drawings earlier on the computer : " Happymonsters " and i will make them and print them on coffe cups for christmaspresents. I cant upload them to my blogg but it is fun to draw them. Have a nice evening to everybody and i have a good time with the cats. I am also fresh after walking my sisters dog for an hour. And i had a so good time beeing back to life again that i smiled all the time.

" Life returns after hard times and it is just to hope for better times and they come to you. "

Talents Are Found All Over The World

Kurt Nilsen won World Idol the first season of " Idol ". He is an amazing artist and i chosed to put out a video of him today. He sings beautiful. And i love to follow the world and see all the talents that is coming to the day. There are so many talents not beeing discovered. And i take the day to think over all the talents i have met in my life. Many has amazed me, and i met also a lot when i was in hospital from musicians to writers. One i met in hospital put music and tones to a song i wrote and it was amazing to hear the song beeing brought to life and not only my voice. I am going to a recording studio when i have saved up enough money to pay for the rent of the studio. I never thought i would record a song, but i am about to do it. And it feels good to have produced a song. Life is taking chances and sometimes life takes you in directions you never thought was possible. You can find hidden talents in all ages and nurse them good. It is a blessing from God and love life. Find youre talent with trying out new sides and maybe you also has a hidden singer in you :-) " Stay curious on life and find youre talents, they bring you joy for a lifetime . "

Persephone The Wildcat Chases Her Kittens Into My House

Here is wild times in my house. Persephone the wildcat makes noises at her kittens ( but still beeing kind to them ) and tells them to stay inside my house. I have two kittens walking all over the house with a big question mark in their face. It is new for them beeing inside a house. Now one is trying to eat chocolate. I laugh so much at them that it is hillarious funny and i wished i had a video camera. I might take one of the kittens with me when i move. I will see how it goes because one of the kittens is tamer than the other. But they still are a bit shy but i could pet one of them for some minutes ago. It is fun with someone creating fun in the house. Persephone tells them to go away from her and to me. She train them in a special way still beeing kind. But i think she wants her kittens to be indoor cats. I love them so much for beeing so wivid and fun. My house is very kind and i have it kind here. It is good to know that someone trusts you with theire life even if it is just a cat. But streetcats as we call wildcats here on the islands is tame with me. Persephone loves me when i pet her. There is always new friends around and it is fun to see kittens exploring life. Have a nice evening :-)

Message To Metallica Fans : Watch This Music Video Again :-)

The Official Music Video to " Enter Sandman " is special. I discovered something in the music video. If you look close when the boy runs beside the rocks you can se the shadow siluette of a horse and also a siluette of a horse in a tree. It is special and makes me wonder if children shall not be so scared at night because we have horses :-) And there is always someone helping you out when you are scared :-) Love horses they make you courageous :-)

My New Appartment Is Taking Form

I am on the move. It is hard work packing a life in boxes and store away things. I have lived in a big house and move now to a smaller appartment that is cosy and nice. It is taking form bit by bit and i hope Happy the budgie i have will have a good time there. It is a new start for me and a new life. The appartment is only for a short periode until i find a house to buy. I look everyday for houses for sale and wish an old house to redecorate and make it my home. Interiour is one of my interests but i have a personal style. I put only in things in my house that means something to me. I dont buy beautiful things just to show them off and make it good. I love an house or an appartment that shows the personality and the love to the person living in it. So now i am off to change a bit style. But make it cosy and warm. I love colours and have a purple bed. I got it from an advertise in Norway some years ago. It is huge and have nighttables with marble on them. It is very beautiful and i sleep so good in that bed. Is is nice to find thing used that dont cost to much and you can redecorate them the way you want them to be.
My days are good and today i was to a beach and went for a walk. It is like life is smiling to me and give me the rest and the happiness i need. I have also applied for job at a psyciatric unit in another city. So if i get a jobb there i move to a bigger city. It is evening here. And i am off to make pasta and eat for making my mood better. I am not depressed, but stay on a diet that keeps the serotonine levels high and working. It makes the days easier. It is a lot you can do to get well and healthy again. There is a solution nearly on everything. And the best news is that my father is much better, and that was a relieve. We thought we lost him but he is a fighter and came back to us in a good mood. People can have a strenght in them that you dont know where they take it from.
Now i rest for the evening and love life. There is always something to do. And when i get into my new appartment i will have an Elvis dvd maraton. I have a special limited edition of his movies in a box and i have not seen them. So i will take time to see the movies and remember my childhood hero.
" Everyday life bring you joy even in hard times, so look for joy and happiness everyday. "

New Recipe has seen the day : Applecacke With Hazelnuts

I have some guys helping me out moving tomorrow and i desided to bake a new cacke for them. It always brings joy and good talks. I invented a new recipe on applecacke that is good in the autumn, and here it is :

250 grams Hazelnuts

5 apples

5 dl sugar

4 eggs

200 grams butter

7 dl flour

2 tea spons baking powder

2 dl milk

baking pan 30 cm / 40 cm

Take the hazelnuts through a grinder and make them as flour. Take 5 apples and peel the apples and cut them into boats. Whisk egg and sugar and put in hazelnuts, melted butter, baking powder and flour and the milk. Put all the mix in a baking pan and put the apple boats on the top and have over some sugar and cinnamon. Put the cacke in the oven for 40 minutes on 175 degrees celcius. 

Serve the cacke with vanilla ice cream and cranberried jam. 

It will taste as autumn and have a good time. 

" A good cacke can make the all day for someone. "

The Scientist

Some people never get bored. They always has something to do. And if they get bored they find something to do. It can be hard to always have inventions in the head. It is like new ideas always popps up. It is like the ideas are given from something higher than yourself. I am like this and work with a lot of health care ideas to get on the market. And i talked to someone today that wanted to work with me if i get money from the Norwegian invention office. One of the health care ideas is my sons and it is extremly good and he was only 8 years old when he invented the health care idea. My son used to be together with me at the university college i took my nurse education. We have had a great life even though it has been hard times because of me beeing ill. But i read once from a yoga instructor in a book that if you have a hard time try to get a new outlook on life and new ideas and work with them all the time. Let them occupy you until the hard times are over.
Today i decided to go back to the kitchen and present for you a new invented cacke every week. I will bake to the weekends and i have idea of one cacke now that will get extremly good. I love to make food and when i was hospitalised i laughed a lot. I told my brother that if someone wanted to break me the only thing they would get out of me was new recepies for food and cackes. It is good to have something to do. And love life. There is always something new to be found. And if you want to invent something it is to create a need in the market. To see if there is a need not beeing fulfilled and get an idea that coveres that need. Or the second step to get the idea so simple that it can seem stupid for you but smart to others. Put everything more simpler than what the exsisting idea is and you got a best seller. And to find a good brand name. I have a brand name for my products now and work with the ideas. But never forgets people suffering. It can be youre best friends. And they can recover and seem so well that they amaze you. And all over the world small and grown up scientist sits around waiting for the new idea to make a breakthrough. Dont ever give up. New market is created all the time. And my products are extremly kind and is for people getting the best health care help that a human is capable to give. Because there is always the human factor. We are not perfect. But in the imperfect you can find originality and that can be more artistic than perfect. Love youre friends and people around you. And if you go with an idea for invention. Just do it. You have nothing to lose. Be youreself and love every second of life even if it is hard sometimes. Everybody got a litle scientists inside of them because we all wonder over things inbetween.
" Dream on - life can be more simple than what you think. "

The Worlds Best Brownie Cacke Exclusive To You

I am inventive and i love to bake. I composed a new brownie when i was in hospital and a lady who worked there dreamed about it because i did not reveal the recepy. But now i do to you so you can suprise someone you love with a brownie with a new twist that taste delicious. It is better than Anthon Berg Chocolate with marzipan. I was so surprised about how good it was. Here is the recepy :

8 egg

1 kg sugar

500 gram butter

8 dl flour

8 ss cacao

3 teaspoons almond essence ( in the grocery store )

2 white chocolate bars to have on the top of the cacke

whisk egg and sugar together, let the butter melt on oven, have in flour, cacao, almond essence and butter. Chop 2 white chocolates bars to pieces and have on the top of the cacke.

In the oven for 180 degrees celcius for 30 minutes.

You can make chocolate fondants of the cacke also. Put the cacke in cupcakes with a tablespoon and have it in the oven for 10 minutes on 180 degrees ( in the middle of the oven )

This cacke is extremly good and exclusive it tastes soo good that everybody getting the cacke got in a good mood. It is a cacke for party and also for everyday luxury. Just try it and get surprised that it tastes better than ordinary brownie.

Best of luck with baking a dream cacke :-)

Kittens In The Kitchen

I made dinner but got a hungry kitten up on the kitchen table wanting to eat together with me. He had so hungry expression on its face that i made a bowl for him and feed him on the kitchen floor. The kittens are tame together with me and they look like breeders cats. They are very beautiful and play around in the house. It seems like always when i am in a situation that is not good that animals saves me out. So now i have a cosy time with coffe together with the kittens. One tasted coffe yesterday. I laugh so much of them that they keep me busy with loving life.
" Welcome new friends in life. They might depend on you and that keeps you stronger and healthier. "

When Strong Is The Only Option You Got

It is hard times here with my father beeing ill of cancer. But i have more strength than i knew of and today i am moving also. My father needed rest so i stay home and fill up boxes with things to take with me and things to put aside. Life changes. You can have a plan but inbetween life happens so it is not easy to keep a clear plan all the time. But i stick to beeing strong and when you know you have to be and see that motivation and courage follows it is possible to have good days even if life is hard. I have a good day today. My aunt visisted me and we had coffe and had a good talk. It is best to stay together in though times. The kittens and Persephone runs around in the garden and shows me it is possible to survive with a street life also. They enjoy the sun and teach me to sease every moment of my life. Life gives you a lot. From extremly kindness to hard illness. But to stay strong keeps me in work and not falling appart. I hope that all people suffering can have friends around them and stay together. It is easier then. But even in hard time life can show you extremly beauty and happiness.
I am making dinner and are resting now, before my brother comes here to drive my things to the new appartment. Life is good even in hard times.

" Stay strong when life tells you to and know that there always is more strength than you know "

Animals Understands You More Than You Know :-)

It has been hard days here. My father is under cancer treatment for brain cancer and he got epileptic seisures and they took MR and CT and a lot of tests and it was not the cancer doing it. Last night we thought we lost him and it is hard to say goodbye to someone you love. Today my father was better and i have been in on the hospital for several hours and we talked to the doctor. He sayed the condition is very seriously and they dont have a good enough treatment because they have never seen this kind of complication before. It is cased by an infection and he has gotten four small absess in his brain of infection. It was very sad news and i am strong but it affects me a lot. We went home and my aunt and my fathers lady is staying with him. I had dinner at my moms place together with my sister and my aunt child. And then went home. After a litle while i got very surpsrising visits. Persephone the wildcat has been back for a week and gotten food. And today she came to visit me with her two kittens. I got so happy i cried. She has managed to get two kittens up after getting good food and a good and warm summer. The kittens are now walking around in my kitchen and it seems like Persephone wants to give them to me. The kittens are steel grey with long fur and emerald green eyes. They walk around me right now as if they have always known me. They are extremly qute and hungry so i boil them eggs and give them cat food. Persephone seemed like she knew i was in bad mood and kittens are the best to get out of a bad mood. Life is hard but it seems like there is always someone that understands you and wants you good in life. The best friend can be an animal. I have it happy and good here now and laugh of the cutest kittens ever. So life can turn fast. I love Persephone for all that she has done for me, and maybe i have two kittens if they accept me. But they are tame in the house. So we will see how it goes. It is wildcats so i have to be careful for some hours. But life is good again and the sun shines in good autumn weather.
" In hard times be always up for surprises. Someone always loves you and want you to be happy. "

The One That Run After Sunlight Even On Rainy Days

I have thought a lot about mental ill people. So much that i got ill myself. Life is hard and can be even harder if you get hospitalises. I have had several diagnoses from no diagnose, to depression, to bipolar disorder to schizoaffective dissorder to schizophrenia. It never looks like they get me right. And not this time either because i am not schizoprenic at all. I have talked to a lot of patienst through the years and everybody seems like extremly kind people that just has lost theire way. They chase after sunlight even on rainy days. All they long for is that just one person understands them and help them to live right again. To be mentall ill is hard. And it is a desise that its not accepted in the society but many mentall ill patients are only very creative people that has high scills of creative thinking. They only miss love and someone to trust, and when that wish is granted they seem to get well again.
I met people writing poems and books, some making music and some painting and some incredible smart. But the one thing with all of them they chased after sunlight and love all the time. When i was hospitalised in another city i got five proposals. I could have been married, but i felt not the right way for the persons to do so. I loved them but not to be husband and wife. But people tend to hope on the most cloudy and rainy days that someone is going to find them. There is much love and kindness in mental institutions, but life can be hard there. But when the people treating them gets the problem it is even harder, because the patienst understands you without medication and the doctors seems to wanna treat everything with medication. I have sometimes thought that heart ache in some way or another is the main part in a mental illness. People tend to get well finding love with a person spreading love on rainy days.
To understand people in psyciatric treatment is the secret mysterious riddle that makes everyone healthy again is accepting the person. Even on bad days. Because it grows up like a flower a very strong bond of trust and anxiety gets away. It is like the sun comes shining through on the most helpless and darkest days. It is just to tell someone : " I want to understand you ". But you have to mean it and have the stamina to stay in the run. If you do this for a mental ill patient you can see miracles beeing transformed and smile and laughter returning to the most depressive person on earth.

Kindness is the lead word in treating patients. It gets away nearly all problems. And people starts to show you theire world. And many patienst has a higher and more original personality than " normal " people. You can get so many good laughs by someone letting you into theire world. And the world should be more including to people suffering, because some people die in grieve over getting lost to the psyciatric treatment. There has to come a new outlook on mental ill people. The most of them is very kind and helpfull and not at least giving. I have a lot of presents given from other patients and i give to them also. To believe in eachother is what makes the world go round. So remember on grey and dark days that there is people beeing mentally ill and locked inside units that they stay and wait for the sun to shine again with a strength that is incerdible. And remember theire kindness. When i was a litle girl i got tip from an old mental ill patients on how to decorate my house so i only thought good thoughts. She had managed to get well again after over 20 year in the psyciatric treatment and i walked her dog " Teddy ". Every saturday she gave me 50,- krone ( 8 usd ) and candies and soda. I felt like i was the richest girl on earth. And she is still with me today. And now i move to a simmilar apprtment to what she  lived in on her last days. She always was in good mood and always told me to chase the sunlight. And i still do. I think there one day, by listening to the hopes and dreams in all patienst that there is no need for medication. Because noone is psycotic all the time. So when you see someone looking like they are mentall ill. Remember that they can have more sunny days than what a normal person has because they never stop looking for the sun. It is the runners.
" Remember that magic really do exists. Dream on. "

Free Market In The Kitchen

I am on the move and it is a bit hard to move but i survive. I cant have all my things in the new appartment and i acepted that life change and so do i, so i decided to go for a new style when i buy a house. So i decided to give away a lot of things from my kitchen and it was very good things. The kitchen i have now is 28 square feet and huge. The one i have in the new appartment is only a few sqare feet big so i dont have space for all i have. So i took everything out and let my aunt, my mother and a cousin have a lot of things. They got really happy and i was very pleased to make them happy and to give things to them. Everything looks new so it is good things for kitchen use, tea cups, bowls, wine glass etc... is given away. Tomorrow i drive the rest to a vintage store that collects for sale and to Ukraina. So i do good for others also. My life is in change now so it will be fun to see where it ends and were i end up living soon or to next year. I get a start loan with the municipal loan office so i can buy a house or an appartment. But i would like an old house to redecorate and make it new again. I love old houses because there is so much soul in the houses. Now i am cleaning and tidying up and start fresh tomorrow with moving from this happy and kind house. I will see if i can take some pictures of the house before i move so i can put out on the blogg. It is autumn rain outside and blowing a bit and it is cosy to stay inside with lighted candles, coffe and have had guests for some hours. It has been a very good day.
" Welcome changes it is often to the better. Bless the new things in youre life and get happy. "

Cowboy Dreams

I start remember things listening to Jimmy Nail " Cowboy Dreams. " And it takes me to a better life with nature and horses and easy living. Coffe at the citchen table in riding clothes after a long day in the stable. But cowboy dreams made me remeber one man from when i was a litle girl. It is Zebulon Macahan from How The West Was Won. And he played extremly good. I decided to get a man like that when i grew up, but he never seem to show up. There was only one of James Arnes. I followed him all the time and also when he played as a police officer in another tv-show.

I have to get a horse soon, but then a miracle has to happen because it cost so much keeping a horse. But it is good to have dreams. They can come true, and has done earlier. So i have to dream about a cowboy and a horse. I laugh at this. But life smiles all the time if you shift focus, from depression to happiness. I put out some of the tv- show with James Arness as Zebulon Macahan. I loved him and still do :-) I had other heroes than my friends and other role models. And i dont think i have ever told this story before so you are the first to get to know it :-)
" A Cowgirl Always Know Where Her Heart Is "

On The Move

I have started moving to a smaller appartment. It is 1/3 of what i have now, so it is pretty small. It is an old apparment and i have lived in a new house, so it is with mixed feelings i move. But i hope it is not for a long time i have to stay in the municipal appartment. But it is kind of cosy. But there is no view so it will be a bit hard to live there. But life is hard sometimes. Today when i was moving i heard an old song i loved as a teenager. I have never managed to find out what the song was called. But got it today. It was Jimmy Nail " Cowboy Dreams ". I have been a cowgirl with horses and always lived next to nature. And i have to find the way back to that. I love life and have a good time now. The happy cards and cognitive training has done that i dont stay long in bad feelings. It is hard to move from a house that has been filled with happy memories. But sometimes it can be a good experience to have lived in a municipal appartment. I can say : " I have been there " and understand people that dont live so comfortable as they want. But a house is not all in life. You loose some and win some. So i look at it all as a challenge. I dont know where life take me to live for good to the next place i can call my home. I want an old house to redecorate and make it my own place so i am looking every day for a old house for sale.

" A Challenge Can Be A Blessing. "