Home Is Where The Heart Is

A litle wiev at my kitchen corner.

The house i live in is from 1859 and is very cosy.

I will present images of a life with interior done on very little money.

It dont need to cost the world to have it beautiful at home.

My kitchen is cosy and i like it there.

Masterclass with a fjord horse - Inspirational Video

How To Heal From Anxiety

Anxiety is natural to feel. It is just when it keeps you away from living the life you want it is an illness. Anxiety can heal, and sometimes fast with doing what you love the most and get new impressions. Anxiety is a feeling all humans has felt from slightly nervousness to strong panic attacks. It is a road out of this. By taking control and live after you're dreams. The best part is when you feel anxiety to go to the people, the animals or the places you love the most.

To get to know the level of anxiety you feel can make you strong. At once you face the fear and accept it you are in control over you're feelings. 

Life is filled with risk and danger.

I had a son that told me : " Everything can be dangerous mommy. "

And that is true. 

Even the horses i love so much can be a danger and i need to be awake in my nervous system to handle them. But in the most part horses are gentle and kind animals that never will harm you. But they have also a reaction and can by their awareness tell you something to learn about fear. Horses can easily get scared and they handle it as a natural feeling and overcome the fear with calm and steady persons. It tells me that i can lead a horse to peace and harmony and the horses likes me and they help me when i feel nervous energy. I dont have so much anxiety but sometimes get it of Post Traumatic Stress disorder.

But i face my fears and when i am in the situation i fear i get peaceful nearly at once and see that i handle life.

It is to get to know the emotions in you're body and know that a thought is only a thought, you have the power to change the thought that gives you anxiety.

In danger you are supposed to feel anxiety because it leads you away from what you fear. You shall not face all that you fear.

Anxiety is healed by doing positive things and things that make you're mind focus on something else. Animals are one of the best things to be with when treating anxiety back to a normal level in you're body.

To ride is one of the best things to get you out of problems because you're mind can't think of problems on focusing riding dressage.

To find again flow in you're body is to do what you really want to do and do it.

Try.

Dont give up on yourself, and the true part with me was that i for some days ago laughed of myself being scared. I had the natural right to feel it and i saw the humor in the fear i felt.

Animals tells us that they seek comfort and safety when they feel fear to get it away.

And the same things we humans need to do.

Go to the people that loves you when feeling anxiety and break the feeling into something positive.

Natural ways in life heals you.

Maybe you're anxiety tells you that you're body is in crisis and you need a change.

Have you felt this a long time you have to start doing something about what you dream of or what the problems are.

Dont be afraid of the fear.

At once you get to know the scala from 1- 10 in you're anxiety feelings and handle the emotions and the situation even though you feel fear leads you to go more steady into life.

Anxiety is not dangerous and is natural to feel.

But think over you're life if you are in a life crisis that commands change from you and the anxiety is an alarm bell that tells you that you need to work on different goals in life.

Horses heals me and i love them so much for giving me meaning and days in fun and the sport i like the most to do.

This is picture of " Blondie " the Norwegian Fjordhorse in the stable and she is very kind and the horses teach me of natural horsemanship and that there is always hope.

You can live to be over 100 years old even though you suffer from anxiety.

To pray is a good thing to do.

Prayers do get heard and when you see that something helps you the healing starts.

You are stronger than you think and people having anxiety can become very strong when they handle and controls the feeling.

Good luck !

Poem : " Imagination "

Imagination

You can capture the world

with a single thought

of 

love

knowing that you're spirit is a free soul.

You're mind can trick you to belive

in something about yourself

that has to be layed to rest.

Keep you're mind in practice with dreams.

Knowing that you can do so much more

by letting you're past go

and

let love overflow.

In you're imagination you can be

the free spirit never giving up

what other dont see.

In you're dreams you are found

in Gods love to see

that the world takes a closer look

to find the way to yourself 

that all you're imagination

can be start of a life in creation.

Poem : " How Strange "

The winter is here

the snow crystal is unique

and fall while i go asleep

to cover the landscape with peace

for winter joy for us all

The wonders of nature

never stop to surprise me

that on this earth

wonders are being seen every day

to go to the heart to hide.

Why do we get depressed ?

It is up for the science to guess.

But a Snowman can heal you in a second to laugh.

To see that God has humor

and makes us never to grow old

and in Norway they sometimes believe in trolls

Why should we get depressed ?

When God tries at his best to keep us in simple joy

so we dont sink in to dark holes.

Bee a free spirit

there is no need to fear

because the planet is built for all of us here.

This woman understands - I am smiling :-)

Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God [Official Music Video]

Poem To The Ones in Darkness : " Shadow "

Shadow 

Never to know his name

he hides in the dark

because the sun became to strong

He caressed a feather

in hope that there must be an guardian angel

His kindness is known

and he hides to protect

the weak

knowing that only in the dark you see the stars for real

He is loved

knowing that his story still remains untold

But clouds like gentle breeze exists

to show him he dont get burned

of reading the stars

He shows a way to hope

by showing that there has to be dawn before the sun rises 

on

a new morning

You can walk away whenever you want

knowing that in the

shadow

you can rest without getting burned

Dire Straits - Brothers In Arms

" Wildflower " A poem to the crazy ones :-)

You told me i was crazy and insane

and tried to tell me that my life was in vain.

Who are you to see what the wildflowers means to me.

I wait in hope for summer

to see the wildflowers

knowing that God tells me another story

that if you live through pain

life shows you the glory.

Wildflowers tender and strong

everywhere in Gods nature

tells you that life goes not in circles

but on a road that leads you home.

I see it all clearly

that if you tell me i am crazy

you hurt me

and i make stories of love

maybe only seen by God above.

But in the summer to see

the joy God bring with the sun

is the wildflower all around

and i will bring them into my home

to tell you that in all you're madness

i broke loose and found holy ground

that made me strong 

enough to see

that God leads us to paradise

if we only believe

that where the wildflowers grow

there is a place to call home.

Never let go

God gives you secret mysteries

to give you a chance to be human

and care for you're spirit

and through pain

the wildflowers turns out more beautiful than ever before

and maybe just in you're imagination

but is enough to stay sane

as long as you have you're dreams

all can heal

just rest through the winter

and you will see

that God give you everyday a new mystery.

To Catch A Star

Heaven above you is the start of the universe.

By you're eyes and you're soul

you can capture all that is lost

by knowing every second is new.

The star you see can have a name

A-388 and you can think of it as you're own.

By naming the star with you're imagination.

Something so beautiful as a star has fallen for you

if you only knew that you're soul is always pure.

Free to think what you want

in the mystery of love.

Share only what you see with the ones you love.

Walk in pride knowing that you have you're fathers eyes.

Capturing a star

is like holding a peace of heaven

in you're heart.

Start over new

knowing that Gods love is true.

The Beat Generation

This evening i spend reading the poems of an american generation of poets and authors from the 1950`s to the 1990`s.

It is a good book explaining that there is more to life than only perfection and happiness. In poems and text you can find visdom and knowledge to go further with you're life and have a good time. I have made coffee and is reading about the Beat Generation. 

It is people that took up the changing generation to liberty and a free world for all people. I bought this book in a vintage store and do some of my book finding there.

To read is good when you have problems because you find out that you are not alone. 

The world is big enough for all of us and we can change it by letting all be heard in their own wisdom as long as they dont harm you.

I have a good time reading new and surprising thoughts from authors that changed the generation we live in today.

How To Heal From Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD )

For the ones suffering from PTSD even the word can be scary and awaken memories of the PTSD.

PTSD is a disorder awakened by traumatic happenings and many people suffer from it and it ruins lives. It is hard to live with the disorder and it is created by something called in the psychology " chaning of memories ". The trauma gets stuck in the mind and the body and play on repeat nearly all the time. And it sends the nervous system into severe stress and anxiety. It is possible to get out of this with breaking loose. It is to take control over the mind and use all you're reason and perception to link to yourself new memories and get the PTSD down in memory. It is to take the picture of the trauma and try with focus and meditation to minimalise it in the mind and trow it away. It is done by meditation and prayer. To go into a memory is not dangerous and minimize it and get it out and try to find new imprints that breaks the chaining of PTSD memory. It gives you all the freedom and control over you're life back. Dont be scared over anxiety. And music can heal you with using music as therapy and know that many musicians understands the hard facts of life that we are humans and musicians tries to help and reach out to us suffering by writing music and sing for us to ease us down and make us feel at spirit and in peace.

Break the chaning of PTSD by be together with people you love and use reason that you are not in you're trauma in the real world and let reality help you with giving you new imprints. Stay over the fear of the memory and give the body time to readjust and heal.

It is possible to be free of PTSD and i have the horses, writing and music to help me to heal from PTSD and i have a good time and feel peace for the most of the time and sleeps well.

It is possible to recover and heal - so never give up. 

Horses Are Kind

War Horse - Official Trailer [HD]

Blondie The Fjordhorse

This is the other horse here at the farm.

Her name is " Blondie " and she is of the breed Norwegian Fjord Horse.

This horses have a long history in Norway and has similar colors and maybe heritage of the asian horse Prezewalsky.

To study horses is a long history and a history that tells about traveling in earlier ages.

The vikings was a lot around i believe.

I read a book now about the Fjord Horse to learn about the breed.

Blondie is very kind and has gentle and charming eyes.

She looks a bit romantic.

The horses dont look their best because of natural horsemanship where the horses is allowed to go out every day and stay in a paddock that is large.

But here rains a lot so the soil can become a bit dirty when the horses roll themselves.

Blondie is very kind and gentle.

And i laugh at them a lot for being humorous and give me other impressions in the day. It heals me to be together with horses.

Ryvar Is Kind and The Vikings Might Have brought this breed to America

This is Ryvar and he is of the breed " Lynghest " ( Norwegian )

He is very kind towards me and turn away from me to say :

" I let me lead of you and i dont hurt you "

and is a bit shy.

So i have to be very gentle towards him.

I give him apples and carrots every day, and by temper he reminds me of the mustang.

He has stamina and spirit and dont like to be alone.

The horse is a herd animal and to stay alone for them is not good.

He has a friend in the norwegian breed " Fjordhest " ( Fjordhorse )

and that is " Blondie " 

She is gentle and kind.

The vikings might have brought this breed to america very early

by Leiv Erikson, but i will never get to know that since there is little history written down.

Ryvar is very kind and i go to him now to heal and have a good time.

Animals can sometimes be better friends than humans when you dont understand the full picture.

Whiteflag.one

I have to start working for the care i have for others.

And i believe in Peace On Earth.

And i believe it is not hard if politicians only listened to the ones who is suffering.

I could not get up the original video with five finger death punch with

" Wrong Side Of Heaven "

but i recommend that you go to youtube and watch this video 

it is about veterans from war.

I had a grandfather that thought me well up in nurse skills to heal trauma and i helped him with being me and just happy and curious at the world.

He saied to me that i should listen to Heavy Metal when i was 14.

And so i did, but not as much as i was supposed to do.

I start 

www.whiteflag.one

in my grandfathers memory he made a good life even though he sailed out during second world war and was with the allied at D- Day in Normandie.

His boat was shoot with torpedos two times

but a good captain and a good crew saved the boat every time.

Nobody died on his boat during second world war.

I sell pins with a white flag with a diamond ( crystal ) on to keep in spirit that there is only one of each of us and that we need to save each other.

To keep out of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder my grandfather did a lot of mental exercise to keep his mind busy on other things.

To have a mystery to solve help thoughts to get away.

And all can be cured 

and find inner peace and health again.

I will sell the pin of a white flag to collect money to veterans.

And if someone wants to join me ?

Send me a mail.

Love 

I can't get up the original music videos.

But i hope you take the time and is willing to donate money to veterans suffering all their life for protecting us.

We love them.

Walk Of Life

Somebody knows what is going on 

and many problems had been solved if it was okay with flaws and humor

and the thing is that we are not perfect.

For some it can be a disaster to have a pimple and for some they just laugh.

We are humans and is able to do incredible many good things in life.

I am a bit tired of all the treatment i have gotten

but i am reloading here at the farm to turn a different and safer way

with www.whiteflag.one

I believe in peace for all

and that problems can be solved and maybe give us a good laugh.

Do The Walk

Everyday is a new mystery to solve.

I have had visitors here at the farm and been walking to the horses and the beach.

It fills me with joy to be outside 

even though it turned in to rough weather.

I got all wet and it was a feeling of being alive.

I am about to buy a river cajakk that i shall surf on the waves on.

Here is wild nature and calming fields.

I can't wait until spring and summer to feel the beach and go swimming and surfing.

I have no depression today of being together with people i love even though i dont understand them sometimes. But people are a mystery in their own way.

It helps to be kind and nice as much as you can.

To stay positive is to stay in love.

Knowing that we are not the same and has different plans in life.

I asked my brother to save the world but he said :

" It is a to big job ".

But i know people can make it if they turn into a new reality and show people a new way.

It is called new imprinting in people.

And people want peace and love.

I have found it here at the farm

by the beautiful west coast of Norway.

And i am working on 

www.whiteflag.one

To let people have the hope that they are secure no matter what,

and that people find a community for peace

and know that there contribution to peace is helpful.

A good talk can lead you into new perspective

and things are not always as you think.

Live in Peace and Joy

and may you have a happy life 

even in problems.

Love Yourself

To feel love is a gift we humans have. But also animals feel love. 

Emotions belongs to life and all we think and feel is a part of what we are. But we are able to change out thoughts because much of our thoughts can be formed by situations and conversations with others. 

It is not by others we create our personality but in contemplation and in peace.

To form ourselves to love is to take a step back in peace and find out who you are.

You can be surprised over how simple you're dreams really are.

The surprise by letting feel peace and go into yourself in love is to find a path of peace.

You get more balance and self esteem.

You will find simple dreams that is easy to find.

You need to love yourself to get out of a depression

and i am working on this myself.

There is so much problems that can form you into something that are not you.

Hold on to what you love and make a statement in the interior in you're home to tell what you love in life.

I see that my dreams has manifested by never letting them go,

and have outer interior that reinforce the secret of dreaming and reaching goals.

You dont need to always write down you're goals but can have interior that help you in making it comfortably at home and give you're dreams direction and that you feel protected by love.

Love yourself and be the person you really want to be without being scared of what other says about you.

It can cost it the start, but after a while people get used to the real you created in love to yourself and that makes you kinder and more people want to be together with you.

Be loved in all you are and feel love towards yourself by dreaming and taking care of yourself.

My Good Friends

I have visitors for the evening and it is our family dogs " Ruffen " and " Toya "

they are extremely kind and make me laugh and smile.

Ruffen gives kisses and Toya hugs.

I have a great evening.

The Making Of A Nurse

I have just started to read this book by Tilda Shalof

" The Making Of A Nurse ".

It is a brief story about a nurse sharing her knowledge after working 25 years as a nurse.

It gives me knowledge and i have to say that people taking nurse education stays in the role the rest of their life.

To be a nurse is to be a caretaker and give aid no matter what without asking personal question in the nursing.

It is care taking and aid to all people.

I can't wait to read the rest of the book it is given more credit than " Greys Anatomi ".

I have worked as a nurse but i saw a system without enough money and resources and a lot of failure and people not giving the best nursing a human is capable to give.

I was worried all the time for the patients and i have a lot of care in me but can not work in the first line anymore because i get exhausted of the lack of resources.

A nurse shall always give hope, comfort and mildness and caring to suffering.

I have to give this in the small spaces of life.

Knowing that i have a good life even though i suffer from depression. 

A mild one but my mood gets down. But the life is problems and to be a nurse is to be very strong and develop self-esteem and a highly qualified role.

I work with this the rest of my life.

And will tell everybody. There is always hope for love. Even in the last part of life. Reality can find you in that what scares you can become a blessing working through the fear you have for different things.

I read a lot of literature in nursing in the goal of going back as an assistant. I dont know if i want the responsibility in the caring prosess.

I have discovered that in my case many nurses dont do their job in keeping me in hope and in resources. I have to find the way on my own.

And

maybe that is the best way ?

Follow this blogg and see how days go by with farm life and self nursing back to life.

When i look at the big picture i live a more normal life now than ever before. It is just to adjust to this life and realize that dreams comes true even after hard times when you think you have lost it all.

Next year i am up for teaching classes in nursing psychosis and give the nurses and health care people the right tools to work with patients suffering more than you thought is possible. But there is alway a way out.

It is to try to find peace with changing emotions and go after positive feelings to reinforce them and integrate them in you're wellbeing.

Stay in hope that dreams come true and that sometimes the life is a bit dull. It is time you can use to dream or taking responsibility for yourself and get activated by yourself.

There is always meaning with life.

Hold on no matter what - there is always hope.

God Is Up For Surprises

For over ten years ago i was sad and depressed and all i wanted was nature and peace.

I bought this book to help me to force my dream to stay with me.

I have had this book on my bedtable for years to never let the dream go.

I thought in my treatment that i never would reach this dream

But by a huge surprise i got to rent a farm in a wild and calming nature by the ocean. 

It got better than this book because here is horses on the farm.

I let go of the dream, but God never let it go away from me and held it while i was not able to dream. I have had it like this cold winter mornings. 

The scenery here is relaxing and wild and held a vert beautiful light by the west coast of Norway.

Never let go of you're dreams.

And

if you forget them God remembers them for you 

and give you surprises you never dreamed of.

God can show you something better.

What is a Mustang Horse; Rick Gore Horsemanship; www.thinklikeahorse.org

Ryvar is kind - he reminds me of the Mustang

One Of The Horse At The Stable " Ryvar "

This is one of the horses here at the farm where I live now. 

He is extremely kind but has stamina and temper and reminds me of the Mustang. 

His name is " Ryvar " and is of breed a " Lynghest " ( Norwegian )

I belive that the Mustang has different mixtures of breed in their history.

Ryvar has the same colors as the mustang in the movie " Spirit ".

He is now in winter coat so he looks a bit more fluffy and cosy.

Norway is cold at winter time and the horses needs to have winter coat.

Many owners of horses in Norway use rugs to keep the winter coat away, but i belive it is more healthy for a horse to keep it the natural way in a so cold country as Norway.

I can't wait to ride " Ryvar " at the beach here in canter and i have a good time at the stable. But because of post depression in me after treatment i am a bit more tired. But i try to be with the horses everyday.

Ryvar is extremly kind and i give the horses apples and carrots. They eat very kind and careful so i should not get my fingers in their mouth. That had hurted a lot.

Today i took pictures of Ryvar and he wanted to stay together with me and made noises in a humorous way.

The horses gives me a good laugher everyday with being themselves.

They are cosy, gentle and kind in stamina and awareness of their surroundings. There way of sensing and the connection with them awakens my nervous system to not only feel peace but to meet  life again with stamina and impulses for joy.

The horses heals me.

This Guy Understands

America's First Horse Hidalgo and the Spanish Mustang

Somebody is loving everybody - Bon Jovi

Natural Psychology

Life is natural in all kinds of way at once you find the meaning of life. The meaning of life is never hidden it is around you all the time but clutter and past emotions from the past can disturb you're thinking. We need peace to recover the mind - like you need to recover from exercise and to find perfect balance is to find yourself. You are much stronger than you think and if you see Top Gun you can understand that even the best is afraid of love and it send them into emotions thats scare them. And maybe more than war and battle action. 

I wonder what has went wrong when people is so scared of love ?

It is the best feeling in the world.

But love you can find on you're own because love is not only sex. It is to find someone to connect with that is willing to risk his og her life for you on occasions.

Some men is so scared of love that they rather jump from an airplane with a parashoot. They are not afraid of risking their life. But they are afraid of love and it can break them to get a rejection from a woman. I dont say that only men are scared of this. But women also. And they exercise they mental state away to be perfect. Why has it gotten this way in the world ?

Love is kind and easy and found in inner peace. And if you have broken down enough times you are not scared of love anymore. But there is many fools out there. But why ?

When all seek the higher love. 

And it is found in peace and relax when you find someone that you are safe on and accept all kinds of wrongs with that person as cute reflections of the personality.

Try to stay alive no matter what has happened to you're heart and know that you can find love in you're dreams with yourself that comforts you when you love yourself and then you're heart will heal. 

Dont be afraid of yourself and you can manage to get the best out of yourself with knowing that you maybe are more okay when you dont pull it off so often.

People seek people that accepts them and that make you strong.

Stay together and accept each other and dont be afraid of a no.

Sometimes it takes time to find the ideal partner.

For some it is not found before they are elder people. 

I read a cute story about a teacher that did not find love before she was in the 70`s and it was all worth waiting for.

Somebody is very kind to me and i am not alone but can't lay out all my life. But heroes are shaped in the presence of dreaming dreams for you when you have lost them yourself and new beginnings can start every day.

Relax and dont be afraid - even in a danger zone.

Good flight in all the emotions of life.

You deserve the best.

We Are Humans

Psycology is a new way in humans history. It is only 100 years old. And Freud took morfin himself. It is not the wisest way to treat a patient with much medication. We are humans and we have several of emotions to control and to take responsibility over. To find meaning is to accept the feelings we have and go for our dreams even when we are down. But to set yourself a goal higher than life can give you problems because it needs to be reality in our goals. But it is allowed to feel and the ultimate goal is love and peace and harmony. It is not to be happy all the time. 

It has grown in the society that we shall look the best all the time and that sends the society into a psychological war that people want to overgo each other and extreme competition and a lot of loans for money to buy things. It sendt the world into crisis. What about the poor and starving people if you take up a loan to buy a Lou Vuitton bag or the best shoes. I dont know the name on brands because i shop at Hennes and Mauritz because it is cheap and they even sell Metallica gear and that got me happy. I also buy vintage and i dont go around ugly but i dont want to look like a glamour model. I live a country life and give money ever month to UNICEF and RED CROSS every moth and try to be kind on nature. 

We Are Lead Astray By The Popular Psycology and Coaching

Love is a form of art that takes discipline sometimes. I read a book in the years of nursing studies by a man sitting in concentration camp at second world war. We face a different world with a lot of cruelty and we need to find zones of peace to recover. Either alone or together with people that loves us. All problems can we cure if we look at mental illness without diagnosis and look at the problems as life crisis. We are humans and face problems. We are lead astray by psychologists telling us that all times should be happy. I use to say that all people in the world needs a doctor on occasions. We do get ill either mental og physical. Coaches tell us to copy other people and give the same presentation as them. The truth is that there is only one of us in the world and we shall seek ourselves to find the inner love for ourselves. We can picture anything in our minds and we can be lead by the society and groups of friends to believe that the best part of life is to stay beautiful at all times. The truth is that we ages and people loose sometimes there beauty outside. But can form a greater appearance by character developing in difficult times.

The psychology tells us to behave at our best all the time. It dont give much room for problems. The truth is that the world is very chaotic right now. And we need to face this time and find zones of peace , love and happiness. To feel love can make you go through a line of discipline but it should not be to hard. It is like riding dressage on a horse. A horse har to learn it first by a leader on the back that is kind and give the correct signals. And so is it with cognitive behavior therapy. We need someone that focus on you and not on all other things in themselves and helth care people only presenting themselves. You shall be in the middle to be treated to new skills. And you can go on this search alone. By studying and reading and find the things working for you and to find you're own character and you're own individuality. The surprising part with this is that the body answers with finding the best weight for you and transform into more peaceful habits. It is more normal for us to feel peace and that should be the ultimate goal to find rest. Even to much happiness is stress for the body and some of the most happy people you see can be sad on the inside. I have been treated very bad by the psychiatric unit i have been to and are finding my way on a farm with horses and by the sea. I walk every day and is soon on the horseback teaching the horses western riding in pleasure walking and work. It is for me the journey to the road home. When you are in you're body you're own home no matter where you are and in all surroundings. We are lead to believe that beauty and happiness should be there all the time. It is an illusion we need to be able to know that problems can be a blessing because we learn to never do them over again and it leads us to inner peace. In the Bible it is said : " May Peace be With You " and i hope you find inner peace in you're own body and in you're mind to find natural happiness and love and understanding for all people suffering. It makes you a kinder person. So believe you can live through all problems and even the most saddest grieve and know that the world is a mystery and that things in a persons life can be different from what you think. Live in peace and know that you are supposed to be the only one of you. Go for the things you like and dreams being formed in you and not what other people do or what other tells you that you dont like. You form yourself and by this normal reflective thinking occur and you think normal and even depression and anxiety disappears. I have a lot to do with complaining on my treatment because i was treated for four years without a plan and it is against the law. And it seems like everybody in the system wants to brush it under the carpet. But i have to work like a police officer and know that other people help me. But the road is long and it gives me sad times. But i have inner peace and a great place to live with horses so i am giving happiness and serenity at this place and has found my dreams.  I know i think normal and that the world is much more mysterious than i ever thought is was. But stay on the road no matter what you're problems are. You can find a path that is better to walk for you than you ever dreamed of with facing reality and you're own true self.

Are We Crazy ?

The world is more dangerous now than in a long time and people can get scared of the world. We are facing terror, wars and a lot of different things. It can get you down to face the world. The world will be facing a lot of different mental illnesses and they need to be treated good. It cost the world society billions to treat this illnesses. But it can be done in a short time because we think that we never shall feel down. But the truth is that all people hva problems. We have to face reality. It is that we have feelings and they do something to us. But we need to understand and learn nursing on our own. We need to take responsibility for ourselves and our own mood. But nothing is better than having a good friend to talk to when you are down. In the 80`s the psychology changed into popular psychology and lead the world to believe that we always is control of our own happiness. But the truth is that we suffer and i belive in God. Jesus suffered a lot and how are we to think that we shall live in eternal happiness when Gods own son did not escape problems and was treated worse than us. We have to think over that suffering shapes our character and give us strength. We find our way even if it takes years. Dont give up. Happiness is found in the moment. And we can get happy again. But we will feel down again thats the reality. Bruce Springsteen has also been down and told that he had a depression and felt disappear. We aren't guaranteed to alway live in the light. We need to know that darkness can give us character and strength to find our own way and make us think over that the world is more than fashion and beauty magazines for being our best outside. What about the inside ? We need love, care and good relationships to live. And we can all heal but know that is it natural to feel down in-between and know that we have control to change our life into a life worth living. I found out after years that i wanted to live a life in peace and not being on the side of burning off most energy i have because i then always would face a low. I got bipolar and is not that anymore. I live in peace and have friends and horses taking care of me. And i feel happiness everyday and sometimes down of all going on in the world. I can't change the world. But tell that the reality is problems for all of us. And we can make them into something fun if we manage to look at the bright side of that we learn and it gives us shape to love more. We appreciate a good relationship towards all people giving some problem time. Even a depression can make you into a wholer person. Live with all you're strengt and know that peace will come to you in a great love from God if you face you're problem and you can appreciate the small things more than ever and give you a happiness you never dreamed of but in a different mood than the most ecstatic happiness. Live on and listen to music when you feel down. No good music had been formed without some of the darker siden in life. Face reality and live good with finding you're own way. Through a mental illness and surviving it can give you more self esteem than you ever dreamed of. To undress that i am not prefect take courage. But i do it to help others and with some problems you form identity and personality and not at least love. So dont go around scared. It everybody is a bit crazy so why not live the way you want to ? It is not said that you are the most crazy person and you can end up more normal than ever thinking yourself through all problems and know that you are loved even if you are not perfect.

Rock On !!!

Somebody is saving them - look at this video - help them

This Is My Song - i am like her

Rihanna Saves The World - She Is Best - Mustang

Mustang can be a Norwegian breed of Leiv Eriksson

Somebody is saving us - He is strong

Spirit and here at the farm a horse look like him - love is all around

Horses saves people i am here for two years and a horse is kind he look likes the Mustang and is though and kind and fill me with joy.

Somebody is saving the world - kind - listen for hope :-)

Army Mother - Love All

Army Mother - Kind - Lioness by Sivert Høyem You Have To Buy It

Sivert Høyem is Kindest - New Record Out Now " Lioness " - Kind

Sissel is the kindest

Somebody Loves All - Thank You

Somebody is loving all - thank you 

Somebody will think in five hours - Bon Jovi Knows and is the kindest.

Dixie Chicks - Not Ready To Make Nice

Army Mother - How To Love A Child

This day i think about my journey in love to my son.

He is 22 years old and serving in the army and is soon going on NATO rehearsal with troopers from all over the world.

He dont got a nerve but is solid, loving and strong to his friends, family and mother.

I have wondered a lot of the role being a mother.

I have had bad luck in my life but succeeded as a mother with a child that thank me for a happy childhood. The grown up life i can't protect him against but i try to be there whenever he needs me. But he dont need his mommy so much.

This weekend my son is home from the army on holliday and he was here yesterday for pizza and a film. We had a great time together and he comes back here today and the horses here like my son a lot, the horses made noises when he came to the door. I have horses in the wild garden outside. 

To love a child is unconditional and with all accept knowing that the child can think on his own. I saw my child as a baby being able to think and solve problems on his own. And i thought : " I never disturb this way of thinking " . And i saw a happy child growing up free in his mind to be himself. He has never had strong borders and regulations he has lived his own life with me as a guardian. Children can think for themselves and often in a very mature way and stimulate them to do this. They will be solid grown ups and free spirits their whole life. I have so much love for my son and it is much i have missed during my illness. And now my son is my guardian teaching me about a new life and a new way. With stronger dreams than what i had. One of them is going to Mount Everest. My son has a dream of going there some day and i will follow to base camp. I dont know if i would make it to the top of mountain. But the dream is lighted up in our hearts to choose a way in peace for www.whiteflag.one

We have dreams of peace and not war. My son go for education and not the army even though he make it good there as a trooper assistant and sometimes a team leader. He is very kind. I have thought him to be himself no matter what and that gives him inner peace. He sleeps well no matter what. Give you're child acceptance and unconditional love. Even in troubled times. Everyone makes mistakes and dont let the children live you're dreams but there own. And maybe a world opens up to you that you never dreamed of or never thought possible. And when they grow up they guards you for the love you have given them and give you strength to go on no matter what. 

My son always finds something to do. He always has a plan and can also relaxe so well that i fall asleep in his presence and great love always heals you. I get better mental of being together with my son and in acceptance i let him go out in a world on his own with the sound of Dixie Chicks being played in a little house by the sea for years. It was my glory days together with my son and not a party life for a young mother. And now we face a more unsafe world in peace together on a farm with horses that God sendt us. We are safe here. It is not a modern house and i dont have much money but i have love and maybe that makes me to one of the richest women on earth because the love for and from a child can't be measured in money.

Love you're child for all it is worth and see them shape a world for you in love. Where you always belong and there is room for mistakes and forgiveness. That is what perfect love is about. Be a guardian angel and see how new dreams you never dreamed shape you're life.

Maybe in about three years from now I sit at base camp Mount Everest, but remember that the training to the trip could be much more a dream coming true than the final goal. 

Love everybody and welcome a world in peace with children reaching their dreams. 

We take our steps in peace for a new world and now i let my son see this world with his eyes and his reason and intellect and it guides me. To see you're children grow wiser than you with guiding them on the mistakes you have done leads to happiness. So if you have failed, make it good again with showing that parents are not perfect. It makes happy children and with love for everyone.

Absolutely Blue

Today i have had a day with a lot of side effects of medication. I have nearly slept all day and i woke up tonight and it is night time here.

I wonder so much about why there is so much stress with doctors to find a diagnose with people and medicate the humans suffering.

Many medications flattens the emotions and also slow down the cognitive processes in the mind.

I thought the society liked a lot of humor and fuzz.

and in the outer life that was accepted from me 

but not in a hospital unit. I was looked at as bipolar. 

i adjusted my behavior to the unit and the diagnose ended in schizophrenia.

I think i start throwing jokes again.

It must be allowed to think and feel in the society

even if you are different.

I am kind and do nothing to other people in the society.

Small fuss with my family occurs once in a while,

but isn't that even what the priest says when you get married :

" For better and for worse ".

I am not married but i think of those words.

We are humans having emotions and having a bad day once in-between.

I have been in a unit that i had to behave better than Jesus Christ to get out.

It is difficult to try to be perfect in all situations to get you're freedom back.

I am feeling blue today

knowing that human emotions that is quite normal is observed as illness.

I dont get it quite well ?

I hope that everybody suffering can get a better life

and a lot of stress reduction because being hospitalized is a lot of stress and they dont get the person right before the stress is gone and it can be done without diagnosis.

Human is something you are.

You dont just get human

you have been that all you're life and it is emotions

it is also allowed to feel blue once in a while.

I just dont get why it shall be so much fuss for feeling and having opinions in life. 

I got medicated and hospitalized because of an invention with vitamin and minerals and owning domains. I really dont get why the doctors treated me this way for thinking innovative.

I am just blue and hope it will go away tomorrow.

I put out a song with one of my favorite musicians Sivert Høyem and logg into my brain for the sleeping mode. If it works.

Somebody Understands - Heaven is love

Green Day - 21 Guns [Official Music Video]

This Man Is Kind

He Knows Whats Going On

Time Heals Everything

Dreams Never Let Go Of You

Everyday i take a walk if i have the stamina 

and i meet this guys.

They are curious and like to talk to me.

Dreams never let go of you

even when you think you have lost you're way

and God can turn up and show you a safer and better way

in more peace than you ever dreamed of.

A Dream Of Peace Came True

This is were i live right now. On a farm near by the sea and i walk by the seaside nearly every day. Dreams can hold so much power and in dispear it can be the only thing you have. Dont give you're true dreams up no matter what happen in mysterious ways God can find a way for you - even when you have stopped believing in you're dreams. It happened for me in a short time. I nearly gave up life, but as someone hold a hand around me i was lead to this farm by the seaside. Give God a chance to work for you - he loves you :-) I am very kind.

Whiteflag

All life you can start over new. Even if some people mean you shall stick to the pain and suffer. I have all my life climbed an inner battle for peace. For a year ago i created www.whiteflag.one for world peace. I work with this with very little money and it is a page working ang giving information on peace keeping activity and missions global.
It is also being created when i save up enough money pins with a crystal on the white flag for telling people " I want world peace and we have no one to loose in this world and to symbolize the culture of individuality that there is only one of every one of us. "
It is created in a year and will be put out for sale on the page www.whiteflag.one. Buy it next year and give world peace a chance for yourself and all the people you love. I am very kind and work all day even though i sometimes suffer from fatigue. But i have a helping son serving in the army that gives his mother courage to go for her dreams for a better planet for all of us.

When You Are In Love With The World

In hard times you're character gets shaped

i know with pressure that more love comes out of me

I love the world

Even if it sometimes dont love me

there is always love to find.

I live now at a farm by Gods choose

and my childhood dream came true with a farm with horses.

There are two horses at the farm and they are 

small, fat, though and funny

they get me in mood every single day

and gets me to love the world no matter what the day starts with.

Bad days happen for us all

we just need time to get out of this feelings

a good advice is to go where love leads you

go to someone you know give you love.

I have neighbors and friends 

and

horses that loves me.

And the funny part is that i need time to adjust that my dream came true

and that i love the world no matter what happens.

I know i am strong

but weak in-between and it is part of being human.

Dont lose it if you feel depresses or out of love

pray for a while

and see if God answers you with giving you a good laugh

and something humorous.

I know God wants me to laugh of the horses

making me laugh every day.

Stay in there and hang out

it is better than being inside.

Dont be afraid knowing that everybody has problems

there is nobody that is perfect

we are humans

so why dont we all act like that with love for each other ?

The Swans Nest

Today is a new fresh start that starts with a new novel in my hands

it is the :

" The Swans Nest "

It is a novel that is founded in psychiatric treatment that people can turn around the system by being themselves and search in the world for symbolic truths about people.

Swans are together for life when they find a partner.

And the book is a story from a 105 year old woman.

My grandma became 105 years old and died for two weeks ago.

It was hard, but when i said goodbye to her i saw something that gave me a lesson for life.

I saw the most beautiful woman i have ever seen in my grandmas face.

Her eyes glowed with love to me

and she held my head with her hands and gave me nose kiss.

She had fun in her to the end and she laughed

even in great pain.

The day of the funeral i sat alone at the farm in grieve

and three swans flew past the house.

It was like they were telling me that there is a new start 

and maybe the most frightening things in life

like someone dying 

can reveal life and give you cover of their love for life.

I remember my grandma as the most beautiful female face i have seen

and it was a loved face with wrinkles and mimic,

that showed me that i never take surgery or botox.

She loved me for who i am and asks now questions in my behavior.

She loves me the way i am

a 

bit

crazy.

We have had many good laughs and rides in my car.

So today i write about swans in the psychiatric treatment 

and turn believes around

with new nurse theory in treating

schizophrenia

it is to tell the language of love that lies in all humans.

And to speak the language of the soul that recovery is founded also in someone dying.

My grandma healed a part of me when she said goodbye.

She died with a smile on her face in peace.

I love this woman so much and her travel from this earth to heaven lead me to write the swans nest. In love to all patients and families around the world

that there is a life even in severe illness.

Have hope and know that love can cover you for the rest of you're life in someone taking goodbye.

In loving memory of my grandma 

and the everyday craziness she kept all her life.

Thank you to all friends keeping me in spirit in hard times.