Sometimes I Wonder.

Today has been a day in sorrow.

Buster left at 13:00 and he did not want to leave.

I was disturbed in how much panic he had in the cage.

Buster is a fighter and i wonder about how it all went with him.

Today i have only been reading " The Idiot " the novel i am writing on.

It is just the first sketch of the novel,

i wrote it in a hurry to manage to survive and have some proves in a novel on what i have been through, even though the novel is the new genre fantasy crime.

I discovered that there was a few mistakes in the novel.

But i am not a perfectionist but need to write the full novel and re write it.

I have been thinking a lot about my life.

I am living very peaceful and i am still without phone connection.

I got a new SIM card today, but dont have password to the phone companies pages.

I have been in very low energy and a bit nausea.

It is a hard time rediscover and memories what i have been through.

I believed that all psychiatric treatment was to get people well again and not on a diagnose all the time. All people can heal.

The movie :

" A Beautiful Mind "

showed a recovery after many years with illness.

John Nash keeps me in spirit that I also could recover.

I believe still that recovery is for all.

I sit now in the living room with lighted candles and a dyne over me, and pillows behind my back and play music.

It is not much but it is in the spirit in hope of tomorrow.

I hope all the suffering can go away.