Dont Ever Be Sad !

Dont ever be sad ! It is possible to stay in a good mood all the time if you work with youreself good, and have things you love to do. I love painting and paint a lot of different motives. I have a lot of Clovns for sale and desided now to put out one more today. It is 30 cm / 60 cm and is yourse for 2000,- Norwegian Krone.
" Live a happy life by doing things you love. "

Clovn Of The Day

This is the Clovn Of The Day and is put out for sale. It is hard to sell this clovn because he makes me so happy. It is yourse for 2000,- Norwegian Krone and the picture is 30cm / 60cm. It is painted in a happy mood and is to spread love and joy. Have a Happy Day !!!

I was to the bank today and did not get a loan. Because she had a budget she filled in and i was in 11000,- norwegian krone in minus every month if i buyed the house. I thought i was in 11000,- in minus a year. The money i get every month is to litle to live for, so i have to say bye bye to the house. I am not sad at all, knows only that i have to survive on litle money. So i have to live in a municipal appartment for a while. But there is a possibility for me to get a loan through the " Housebank ". It is a loan service for people with sprecial needs. The woman who works with this in the county hall is back the 11. August.
So now i get me some food and coffe and paint more today. I hope you like The Clovn Of The Day and if you want to buy it you can contact me on mail. Have a happy joyfull day !!!
" Even a conversation with a no can be a good conversation. "

My Kind House

The house i live in is an extremly kind house. My cousin built it for my son and me so that we should have a place to stay until my son grew up. It was so kind of her to let us live so good for so many years. Now times has changed and my son is grown up and is about to start on his education in Oslo and is moving in about two weeks from now. I am happy for him and know i will get a bit lonely for a while. But it is life that children shall out flying on theire own in the world. I am very happy for my son taking higher education and that he manage the world on his own. He is a strong, reflected and has a lot of resources to make it good in life. I am very proud of him and not at least for him beeing one of the kindest people i know on earth. 

I have taken some pictures of the house and here is one from the bathroom. I dont get a so beautiful bathroom in the municipal appartment. But i will survive. And i am getting better every day. 

I took a picture of the litle perfume bottle my mom gave me as a gift. It is bought in France. The pictures did not turn out as good as i hoped they would do. But it is to see how we have it, and for me to look back and remember one of the kindest things someone has done for me. To let me live in a new house for 7 years.

The evening is good and peacefull here and i am going outside to sit out until it gets dark with a cup of tea and a sigarette. I have not quit smoking yet, but i have reduced it. A new start for me is next month and it will be a huge change. But that is life. You win some and loose some. But the municipal appartment lyes in a very good neighbourhood and my grandmother on 104 years live in a elderhome two minutes to walk from my new place. Have a great evening and remeber that changes in life makes you wiser.

" All changes in life makes you wiser. "

Project Of The Month - Taking Farvel With The House

Today i took some pictures together with our Field Spaniel on 8 years. She is so kind and lovable and is extremly qute. My hair is short and not long anymore because i was skinnhead for a litle while when i was hospitalisised. It is growing back out. But it take a time. 

Today i am starting on me moving. I have to sort out what i am to bring with me and what i need to store in a container. I am moving from a house on 149 squarefeet to a litle municipal appartment on 50 squarefeet. I am not looking forward to move, but life changes and i want to show how my house is like and remember it with a loving heart. We have had so many good times in this house we live in now. I wanted today to share some rooms from my house, but i did not manage to upload the pictures. I am not good with computers and the science behind it, but by time it will improve. I have had a good day today with a lot of peace in my mind and in my body. It is refreshing and good to be home again and not at a mental institution. Life can change to the better everyday. And my best advice to get peace in youre soul : Do what you love and be kind. Dont argue and dont talk bad about other people. I dont do this and the heart gets healed :-) Toya is a close friend of me and loving the entire family. She has cancer and we dont know how long we have her. I love her so much and it will be a huge loss for the whole family when she goes to rest. But she can happily live for a long time still.

" Be kind in all you do and see how youre soul gets peace - it heals you - and people love you back . "

Metallica - No Leaf Clover [Official Music Video] one of my favourites with Metallica

Bad Days That Turn Out Good

I forgot my side effects medication yeasterday and woke up this morning very tired and in a bad mood because of this. I sat outside on the terasse with coffe and tried to wake up. I get so tired that it is hard to have the eyes open. I realised it was just to go to bed again. I slept even when Happy was singing out load. I slept for two hours to 11:30 and went outside again. It was one of those days i realised that nothing would be done. I took side effects medication and got a bit better. I forced myself into the shower and got dressed for the day and not to walk around in the pyjamas all day. When i feel the fatigue it is like it never goes over. I talked with my sister, my brother and my mother. They were throwing a lot of stuff today and tidying around the house. They rebuilt it for one year ago into two appartments. It has become very nice. I went up to my mother and sat beside her when she was going through some old paper and we read about Ireland, England, France, Greece and some more places. I felt the need to travel.
My fatigue went away and i went home to write clean a childrens novel written in 1997 to my son. I read it to him for years and his friends liked the book a lot to. I want to give it out so i have to rewrite it. I worked with that for some hours. My son got back from work and he had dinner and played guitar for some hours before he went to work again. I washed some machines with clothes, read mails and wrote.
Afterwards i went to my moms place for coffe and chocolate. We talked about me moving to another place here on the islands and about big stuff and litle things. It was a cosy time and the dogs were there together with us.
My mom coloured my eyebrows and i did my hair. And got a present with her, a bottle to have parfume in bought in France. It was very beautiful in silver with purple and pink stones on. I went back home and hung up some clothes and cleaned the house and wrote one chapter more on the childrens novel.
It has been a day in the litle. But i have a great time now and is not with fatigue or in a bad mood. It is a bad day turning out great. We live in the small parts also and the days with the litle things happening can be just as good as the crazy and wivid days when everything is good. I just have to say : It is good to be me right now. It is evening and i am about to watch some tv, read over what i have written and knit. So dont give youreself over if you have a bad day. Try to change it by opening up to people that have a good day and stay together with them until youre mood change. Everything can get better.
" Bad days can turn to good days - life has meaning and is worth living. "

Friday night is going to be all right

Everyday is a day to love. The small and the litle things that are precious in life. Its been just a regular day and i am calm, at ease and happy. I woke up at 08:00 in the morning of Happy the budgie and had coffe looking at the silent rain pouring down on a summer day. 10:00 i had visit of the community nurse and she shall follow me up once a week. It was a nice meeting, we looked at the house i want to buy and talked about me moving.
When she left i started working on a book about how to use " Happy Cards " and how to have " thoughtgymnastic ". I worked with that until my son woke up, and he is looking forward to move to Oslo. We had left over of enchiladas. I promised to make gratinated fish in white sauce with macaroni, cheese and garlic to dinner today. My son loves that. It take a while to make and i was bothered with fatigue, but i made it through and it tasted delicious. I gave my aunt child on 8 years also dinner, she eats litle fish. But she ate a lot. It tastes so good that when my son was in primary school his friends ordered it and went home together with my son to have dinner at our place.
I stayed for a while talking to my aunt child, about games, lego, books and Harry Potter. And my fatigue left me.
My mom had fajitas and i ate one, so today i am full :-)
I got also a present today of a friend of my mother, and all natural skin oil called " Neo ". I have had sun exemas of the medication and it took the iching at once. People are so kind, and help out. It was very kind of him to think of me, and the oil was very good.
It is an peacefull evening here and i am going to bed now, and i am thankfull over having so good days :-)
" Everyday is a day worth loving no matter what. "