Honestly Now : The Secret Is Bullshit !

I have to write about my first blogg writing and the day i started. I thought it was the secret from the movie of Rhonda Byrnes. But actually it was God and that is something different than the secret and i am afraid that the secret has created financial crisis and gotten people in ruins with practicing it. Watch the movie about getting all you want in life and dream high. You can sit out in a desert and get water and you have all you ask for in life. And that is God and not The Secret. God gives you what you need in life not always what you think you want so i think the world is up for a lesson. There is common sense in life and not only dreams. There is discipline and not only go for impulses and dreams and have the best flow in life. It is not possible all the time because we are humans and shall feel and not only joy all the time because it is so mentally willpower taking to stay in this position all the time. I have ataraxia - but don't want it all the time. I want to feel all emotions in life and be allowed to feel them to shape to a true person and you don't know who you are and what you made out of you're life before you leave this planet. Rhonda Byrnes says little about praying. And i think the real secret in life is prayers. That is the reason i got ataraxia and Rhonda Bynres have never been in my life and i have followed her with love on Facebook and in videos. I believe the answer is to let God lead you by you're common sense and show you're strength and stamina and get joy when you feel it. I will write more about this. So look for what you really need and sometimes that is a real lesson in life because that can be blessings to make you wiser and they say little about that. It is like the whole world is saying more about the secret but that ruins the planet. We have to think needs and today that was my best friend arriving here willing to fight for my life with peace and love. Jesus had very ltile things in life and shared all with other people. He even ruined away when they wanted to make him into a King. He chosed to live by basal needs and maybe that is the best way. You get what you need in life. And today i walk away from The Secret and Rhonda Byrnes and follows the road God leads me to and that is back to myself and that is not a rich person but a happy person facing life no matter what happens. So Good Luck In Studying Life. Be up for surprises because God works in mysterious ways :-) He loves you and that is worth the world to us all :-)

I Got So Kind Today My Best Friend Is Back To Save My Life

It has been a imbalanced day but life is ups and downs according to my best friend and you are not thought that in the psychiatric field. It is only problems and diagnoses and a lot of fuss. I have nearly had all diagnoses in the world and read about them all. I have studied a lot. My best friend brought me back to the real island life. With gossip and a lot of fuzz. She is a very strong lady with kids that are my sons friends. And we have shared some of the best moments in life together. I got so relaxed to just listen to all happening here and about here adorable kids. I have thought a lot about them the last years. According to my friend i am better than before. Back to my 20`ties because i was very relaxed then and took life as the day gave it to me and slept well. We talked for hours and smoked cigarettes and found out that we do this for a while more and quit together when we are ready. We laughed a lot and i cried of joy that she is getting married to a man that loves her with all his heart. To talk as all myself with the people that has known me best in life is a relieve. And she can witness that i am myself because somebody has tried to hospitalized me a lot today and it is close family that has not been together with me in nearly three months. I have lived alone and had a pleasant life in all the fuzz happening. I document all happening in the apartment with pictures on Facebook to have witness and my friend helps me and got to see for real what has happened. So now i can clean the apartment tidy again. I decided when all the things in the apartment got fixed and fuzzed around to click me mental and do me paranoid that i click them back. I did not tidy to not get anxiety if something is moved and to not see it. And i decided to show who i am with making dvd`s in a video shelf they have stolen dvd`s from and i lied down there strong movies and some kind. I learned that from a man on 60 minutes that kept his all apartment untidy with a lot of mess so nobody could see who he were and not notice him if they wanted to see his personality and analyze him. I am so relaxed and tired and can't sleep because i had such a good time. My friend drove me to the store and shopped for me so i could relax and get help because this is a small society where rumors gets fast around. To be with my best friend again was to get flowers into my life. And my friend has not changed at all in years and look younger even though she is 40 years old like me and we talked about the old days also. She know i have had a difficult life. We are together again and more friends have been on visit to look after me and told me what to do. They support me and guard me with all they have got. To talk like an everydaperson not looking for it all gets me at ease and back to myself and i don't work with my life at stake anymore. And have my friends back and i know they will help me a lot. So now i face the natural ups and downs that is real in life and not being hospitalized if i just show a little sing on grieve. They have put me through hard times losing Pegas One the horse and not get peace to have the feelings i have in this matter. It was a dream that got to heaven. I had her in my life for a little while. And my best friend goes riding together with me. And we talked as adults now and laughed a lot about that. We have grown together in being apart in all that we have missed in each other. My friend can't understand the treatment i have gotten in this life. She is better than a doctor with basic natural life instinct and that is to stay alive. So here i am back to a normal life like a everyday miracle the psychiatric treatment had used months on with medication. So talk to you're best friend always in what is bothering you. They love you no matter what. I go to bed now. More happy than in days and i got a piece missing back in my life. Life shows the best parts in suffering and trouble. So face the ups and downs together with someone it is harder to stay alone. And that can also get you into trouble. People think so much weird thoughts and i want to send in ordinary people to the psychiatric treatment that treats the total person and not only the mind and the thoughts. You get stupid and slow then. So i face life braver with someone close to me back that understands me and tells that i am all healthy and can be myself as i truly am. Relaxed and very kind even though how hard life is with facing a new reality in life. Thank You For Reading :-)

I Wonder A Lot About A Police Dogs Name And It Reveals A Lot ?

I know about a police dogs name and got very worried for children and international operation about a german shaperd police dog named " Cox " it means something you burn in norway in the stove. The dark small pieces in the fire stove. It could have been a nice name. But pronounced in Norwegian it means something very bad in international language as american and english. I wondered what happened if american or english children met " Cox". I was hospitalized and got so angry at the police for calling a international dog this to maybe prove something and it says a lot about their thinking and who they are. International and with foreign kinds " Cox " must have been taken out of duty to not harm children mentally for life. I handle this but children don't. And i hope the police can get my advice and give the dog a new name.
I have started something this night and it is www.worldbureauofscience.com and the homepage is up running and i work for that people can get into mental balance and not bee hurt by the government in any way. The police in Norway is under them and should have helped me and i talked with them this night and sayer what i meant and i have taken pictures and put out on Facebook in what has happened here in my apartment. I have the right to speak as an adult and as a nurse to the police in how to handle society. Give " Cox " a new name so children can walk around free and not harmed with a dog by the police. Let the real koks in Norway be what it is and that is the real pronouncement in Norwegian for something to burn in the stove. Thank You For Reading.

I Have To Prove What Michael Jackson knew ?

Micheale Jackson knew a lot about the world and had high social skills. I can't write much to not confuse anyone. But which all his music then you know his soul. Some of his animals died without him he was very kind and a brave man and had never ruined USA - he wanted world peace. Maybe he knew things after his death ?
I have to tell you something BAD in Norwegian means restroom or toiletroom :-) I can't write more i am in danger i just want to prove what i know but can't talk about all. Micheal knew a lot and read a lot :-)

Diego The Cat Saved My Life

When you have you're lives most terrible day and live in horror it is not easy to handle life. But i always trust the Lord above to save me. I am writing the crime novel the Idiot. And is coming closer to the case and who it is and it is someone very close to me i have trusted for all its worth that should have given me unconditional love but want to stop all my riding and all my loving in the world for money and things i can't explain and still don't know the whole truth about. I can't write the truth in the novel because it is to hard to handle but maybe the book about Pegas One will make me brave enough she gives me courage and guarded me like a mother. Today i went to the stable suicidal and in tears over Pegas One. I thought i would not make the day. Someone close to me has worked with the police to hospitalize me and give me medication and doctors i don't trust at all for giving me a lot of medications. I know someone this happened to and that was Micheal Jackson. He did not make it through but i fight for him also. Because he reveals the truth in his music in what happened to me and he was not guilty in the acclaims against him and i know this. I put out the videos under here to explain and by reading over the blogg you understand more what has happened. I have an invention i did not want to go public with but it is a medical invention for home based use that is worth billions and i was the first one and wanted to take world patent on it but the government office named it " Made Easy " without my permission and it might be stolen so i might lose it all. It was for good health to all and to save children with leukemia to discover it fast at home by their parents. Sometimes doctors just is not good enough. Today i thought my life was over and went to the stable. There on the fence was a cat sitting with his back towards me and i went over to him. He opened happiness in me because i feel. And that is the good part and makes me survive that i have more will to fight this thing. And the cat was so kind. I could not believe his name was Diego as the sable tooth tiger in the movie i don't know the name on in english but it is " Icetime " translated from Norwegian. Diego from that movie made me survive during my over two years long hospitalization. Because i had talked to my son about how it was to have anxiety and i told that it was to react like a sable tooth tiger was outside the front door. My son laughed and said : " Be brave and shoot him ! " I laughed. But i don't shoot and went outside again of my sons words. I got to be brave. But i thought so much about becoming friends with the fear and not be afraid of the feeling. At a hospital a young woman gave me a chocolate egg with an invention or a figure in it and it is called Kinder - egg and is very good to eat and to laugh at. And there was the figure of Diego the sable tooth tiger from Icetime. And i got so happy because he got a friend. And all my anxiety cured. And today Diego the real cat saved my life by being extremely kind and friendly to me. He did not want me to leave. So everything got real. So even in all happening here i am at peace and have ataraxia and is peaceful after a good pasta meal. Smiling over that horses protects me. Oliver the new horse i am riding protected me against the same horse that Pegas One protected me against and he did not make the mare come near me and stood in front of me to protect me. So by the stable i have been saved without i had been dead. I am so thankful to Sissel the woman who owns the stable and the animals. She is amazing and is able to laugh about all happening. I talked to the police today that won't help me and someone close revealed that she has been working together with the police and i have reacted that they have done nothing to save me and not answered on text messages. People has tried to make me bad about images and pictures and ruined my paintings i have her to click my mind. I am sure who it is and some has revealed themselves but the police does nothing. And it is terror on Norwegian ground and i wonder if the governments are involved because i wrote to them for help and has heard nothing. I wrote to the security office. And don't know how long i will live. I am not ready to leave right now from my son and all the life building up around me. It is a new path for me with the stable and the horses. I put out two videos more. Because people knows how they do this mentally terror. And it is intelligent and many people are involvolved. They trigged a mentally well nurse to paranoid schizophrenia and i am well again on my own treatment and my own skills it heals people and animals and i have proven it today by Oliver that hurts in his neck and in his shoulder and is a bit stiff riding. He heals of my treatment and medical touch. I put out the videos to know that the same thing happening to Micheal Jackson is happening to me.

The Secret of Mona Lisa

Mona Lisa is here with me in a silk print i got at a vintage store when i was hospitalized. The best advice for hospitalized people is to always have a picture of art they like or have painted themselves to always keep you as yourself. I got this print as a token of the Secret of Rhonda Bynrnes. Practised by the Lord above it keep you in humor and up for surprises, because God surprises in a good way and have humor and allows you to be yourself. I have studied Leonardo Da Vinci a lot and he suffered a lot because of people and rumors and stayed strong by knowing medical and exercise treatment and was always kind towards people. He was an unforgettable genius that still has secrets to relieve. I am in peace and joy by telling you my interpret ion of The Mona Lisa. I am in strong believe that she was pregnant and was carrying the child with great love to a man. And who it was might never be relieved. Leonardo Da Vinci focused on Jesus and his learning and i believe Leonardo Da Vinci was leaded by voices and had trust in God to go through all he went through. I have studied so much that people who have researched on him told that if he lived today he probably had been put on medication. Nature and painting heals. So study for life the world and see how beautiful it is because i believe paradise is to be found by us here on this planet. Walk in eternal peace and stay kind and you get saved. Love everyday because there is always a solution. Leonardo was very kind and loved mankind and earth no matter what happened to him. Love him for all he was to this planet and his main goal for all he did was to protect - so maybe he protected Mona Lisa and her child by painting her ?

The Living Novel " The Idiot "

I have hard times her. But write on two books. One of Pegas One that passed away yesterday and i am in grieve and tears. She was so kind and beautiful and the most special horse i have ever met. She healed me and let my life go into a new direction. She got much worse in her leg and could not suffer this way anymore. I write about her memory soon when i feel good enough to find the right words for her. It is a huge loss that Pegas One has passed away and i feel empty and in grieve. But work to save my life and my family. Because somebody has done something to me. I have been trying to buy three domains that is worth a lot and was to work with as three firms. The buying of the domains has been manipulated and somebody knew. I have proofes that i have bought them last year in mails. But the registration went wrong. And i don't know what happened when i bought them again. The purchase went through but no money went out from my card. It was for a new life and a new future. And i have written about the domains in the fantacycrime novel " The Idiot " about a paranoid schizophrenic woman that wants to save Norway and The King in the country from rumors and crime. I just did not have a clue who the idiot was - but it is revealing itself who it is. The truth is so hard that i have to put it in a fiction crime novel to save people and make them see the reality and how paranoid schizophrenia can be, because the hero in the novel is an agent working all over Euorpe and USA to save mankind to understanding. But i am worried that the novel gets out in real in this blogg. So continue reading this blogg and know that people get hurt a lot in this world. I have so many experiences from my life and hospitalized and know the way to healing from schizophrenia and i know a lot psychology because i have read a lot and is educated a nurse. Yeasterday the home based nursing called me and i am not under their treatment and i am not sure if they wanted to put me to hospital. My family don't want that and not me either. I have connections to the norwegian army in my family and we work hard here to save my life to a secure place in a better apartment than what i live now. I fight that all people in the world shall get a secure and worthy life no matter what has happened. So keep on following me and se what happens with people that are strong and smart.