Happy Day

Today is a relaxing day with sunshine and dogs. I was home for some hours today and the dogs at home greeted me as if i had been away for years. Last time i saw them one of the dogs tried to drag me inside the house after one of my ears. She was gentle, but did not know how to get me fast inside. Today i have walked one of the nurses dogs and managed to get him to walk heel after only some minutes. It is a beautiful Nova Scott Tolling Retreiever, and now i have been searching the net for a dog to myself. I need someone to get me into routine when i get home. But maybe i wait for one more year before i buy a dog, but i found a great kennel that breeds Flat Coated Retriever, they socialise the dogs early and was very good with the dogs. I havent forgot myself with dogs and they get me to remember that i am still here and is myself and that dogs like me. It is so happy to be together with dogs.
Last evening my cousin was here, with a present and a good happy smile that i recover from psycosis, and is free of psycosis now. But i have days with fatigue and they have taken me down on medication. Experience based training is good, and to even have dogs in the unit is something that gets the patients better. My cousin and i talked for two hours, and she saied : " Get well again an i book you a room in Rome. " She is a hotel director and they have hotels in Rome, but first i want to go to Dublin this autumn to celebrate my 40 year birthday. It is quite a step to really understand that I reach 40 in September. I hope i will manage to do a lot of travelling when i get well again. It is a step to get healed to have people around you that loves you and appreciate you and just accept you for the person you are. They have walked beside me since i got ill the first time in 2002, but i did not get a diagnoze before 2007. And did not get very ill before 2011. It is hard to work out of psycosis and into the world again, but i love life and all there is to it. And work everyday with my mental status to heal. I have strong side effects of medication and need to take Akineton that is medication against side effects and it helps.
Today to walk a dog got me out of fatigue, i manage to walk braver and have a happy time and not at least be me, and the dog accepts you for who you are. To use dogs with patients is healing and can save lifes. This week has been a good week, and the weather is good. I hope you all have happy days and if someone who reads this have a mental illness, never give up. There is always hope.
" Hope everyday for recovery and never give up. "