Honestly Now : The Secret Is Bullshit !

I have to write about my first blogg writing and the day i started. I thought it was the secret from the movie of Rhonda Byrnes. But actually it was God and that is something different than the secret and i am afraid that the secret has created financial crisis and gotten people in ruins with practicing it. Watch the movie about getting all you want in life and dream high. You can sit out in a desert and get water and you have all you ask for in life. And that is God and not The Secret. God gives you what you need in life not always what you think you want so i think the world is up for a lesson. There is common sense in life and not only dreams. There is discipline and not only go for impulses and dreams and have the best flow in life. It is not possible all the time because we are humans and shall feel and not only joy all the time because it is so mentally willpower taking to stay in this position all the time. I have ataraxia - but don't want it all the time. I want to feel all emotions in life and be allowed to feel them to shape to a true person and you don't know who you are and what you made out of you're life before you leave this planet. Rhonda Byrnes says little about praying. And i think the real secret in life is prayers. That is the reason i got ataraxia and Rhonda Bynres have never been in my life and i have followed her with love on Facebook and in videos. I believe the answer is to let God lead you by you're common sense and show you're strength and stamina and get joy when you feel it. I will write more about this. So look for what you really need and sometimes that is a real lesson in life because that can be blessings to make you wiser and they say little about that. It is like the whole world is saying more about the secret but that ruins the planet. We have to think needs and today that was my best friend arriving here willing to fight for my life with peace and love. Jesus had very ltile things in life and shared all with other people. He even ruined away when they wanted to make him into a King. He chosed to live by basal needs and maybe that is the best way. You get what you need in life. And today i walk away from The Secret and Rhonda Byrnes and follows the road God leads me to and that is back to myself and that is not a rich person but a happy person facing life no matter what happens. So Good Luck In Studying Life. Be up for surprises because God works in mysterious ways :-) He loves you and that is worth the world to us all :-)

I Got So Kind Today My Best Friend Is Back To Save My Life

It has been a imbalanced day but life is ups and downs according to my best friend and you are not thought that in the psychiatric field. It is only problems and diagnoses and a lot of fuss. I have nearly had all diagnoses in the world and read about them all. I have studied a lot. My best friend brought me back to the real island life. With gossip and a lot of fuzz. She is a very strong lady with kids that are my sons friends. And we have shared some of the best moments in life together. I got so relaxed to just listen to all happening here and about here adorable kids. I have thought a lot about them the last years. According to my friend i am better than before. Back to my 20`ties because i was very relaxed then and took life as the day gave it to me and slept well. We talked for hours and smoked cigarettes and found out that we do this for a while more and quit together when we are ready. We laughed a lot and i cried of joy that she is getting married to a man that loves her with all his heart. To talk as all myself with the people that has known me best in life is a relieve. And she can witness that i am myself because somebody has tried to hospitalized me a lot today and it is close family that has not been together with me in nearly three months. I have lived alone and had a pleasant life in all the fuzz happening. I document all happening in the apartment with pictures on Facebook to have witness and my friend helps me and got to see for real what has happened. So now i can clean the apartment tidy again. I decided when all the things in the apartment got fixed and fuzzed around to click me mental and do me paranoid that i click them back. I did not tidy to not get anxiety if something is moved and to not see it. And i decided to show who i am with making dvd`s in a video shelf they have stolen dvd`s from and i lied down there strong movies and some kind. I learned that from a man on 60 minutes that kept his all apartment untidy with a lot of mess so nobody could see who he were and not notice him if they wanted to see his personality and analyze him. I am so relaxed and tired and can't sleep because i had such a good time. My friend drove me to the store and shopped for me so i could relax and get help because this is a small society where rumors gets fast around. To be with my best friend again was to get flowers into my life. And my friend has not changed at all in years and look younger even though she is 40 years old like me and we talked about the old days also. She know i have had a difficult life. We are together again and more friends have been on visit to look after me and told me what to do. They support me and guard me with all they have got. To talk like an everydaperson not looking for it all gets me at ease and back to myself and i don't work with my life at stake anymore. And have my friends back and i know they will help me a lot. So now i face the natural ups and downs that is real in life and not being hospitalized if i just show a little sing on grieve. They have put me through hard times losing Pegas One the horse and not get peace to have the feelings i have in this matter. It was a dream that got to heaven. I had her in my life for a little while. And my best friend goes riding together with me. And we talked as adults now and laughed a lot about that. We have grown together in being apart in all that we have missed in each other. My friend can't understand the treatment i have gotten in this life. She is better than a doctor with basic natural life instinct and that is to stay alive. So here i am back to a normal life like a everyday miracle the psychiatric treatment had used months on with medication. So talk to you're best friend always in what is bothering you. They love you no matter what. I go to bed now. More happy than in days and i got a piece missing back in my life. Life shows the best parts in suffering and trouble. So face the ups and downs together with someone it is harder to stay alone. And that can also get you into trouble. People think so much weird thoughts and i want to send in ordinary people to the psychiatric treatment that treats the total person and not only the mind and the thoughts. You get stupid and slow then. So i face life braver with someone close to me back that understands me and tells that i am all healthy and can be myself as i truly am. Relaxed and very kind even though how hard life is with facing a new reality in life. Thank You For Reading :-)

I Wonder A Lot About A Police Dogs Name And It Reveals A Lot ?

I know about a police dogs name and got very worried for children and international operation about a german shaperd police dog named " Cox " it means something you burn in norway in the stove. The dark small pieces in the fire stove. It could have been a nice name. But pronounced in Norwegian it means something very bad in international language as american and english. I wondered what happened if american or english children met " Cox". I was hospitalized and got so angry at the police for calling a international dog this to maybe prove something and it says a lot about their thinking and who they are. International and with foreign kinds " Cox " must have been taken out of duty to not harm children mentally for life. I handle this but children don't. And i hope the police can get my advice and give the dog a new name.
I have started something this night and it is www.worldbureauofscience.com and the homepage is up running and i work for that people can get into mental balance and not bee hurt by the government in any way. The police in Norway is under them and should have helped me and i talked with them this night and sayer what i meant and i have taken pictures and put out on Facebook in what has happened here in my apartment. I have the right to speak as an adult and as a nurse to the police in how to handle society. Give " Cox " a new name so children can walk around free and not harmed with a dog by the police. Let the real koks in Norway be what it is and that is the real pronouncement in Norwegian for something to burn in the stove. Thank You For Reading.

I Have To Prove What Michael Jackson knew ?

Micheale Jackson knew a lot about the world and had high social skills. I can't write much to not confuse anyone. But which all his music then you know his soul. Some of his animals died without him he was very kind and a brave man and had never ruined USA - he wanted world peace. Maybe he knew things after his death ?
I have to tell you something BAD in Norwegian means restroom or toiletroom :-) I can't write more i am in danger i just want to prove what i know but can't talk about all. Micheal knew a lot and read a lot :-)

Diego The Cat Saved My Life

When you have you're lives most terrible day and live in horror it is not easy to handle life. But i always trust the Lord above to save me. I am writing the crime novel the Idiot. And is coming closer to the case and who it is and it is someone very close to me i have trusted for all its worth that should have given me unconditional love but want to stop all my riding and all my loving in the world for money and things i can't explain and still don't know the whole truth about. I can't write the truth in the novel because it is to hard to handle but maybe the book about Pegas One will make me brave enough she gives me courage and guarded me like a mother. Today i went to the stable suicidal and in tears over Pegas One. I thought i would not make the day. Someone close to me has worked with the police to hospitalize me and give me medication and doctors i don't trust at all for giving me a lot of medications. I know someone this happened to and that was Micheal Jackson. He did not make it through but i fight for him also. Because he reveals the truth in his music in what happened to me and he was not guilty in the acclaims against him and i know this. I put out the videos under here to explain and by reading over the blogg you understand more what has happened. I have an invention i did not want to go public with but it is a medical invention for home based use that is worth billions and i was the first one and wanted to take world patent on it but the government office named it " Made Easy " without my permission and it might be stolen so i might lose it all. It was for good health to all and to save children with leukemia to discover it fast at home by their parents. Sometimes doctors just is not good enough. Today i thought my life was over and went to the stable. There on the fence was a cat sitting with his back towards me and i went over to him. He opened happiness in me because i feel. And that is the good part and makes me survive that i have more will to fight this thing. And the cat was so kind. I could not believe his name was Diego as the sable tooth tiger in the movie i don't know the name on in english but it is " Icetime " translated from Norwegian. Diego from that movie made me survive during my over two years long hospitalization. Because i had talked to my son about how it was to have anxiety and i told that it was to react like a sable tooth tiger was outside the front door. My son laughed and said : " Be brave and shoot him ! " I laughed. But i don't shoot and went outside again of my sons words. I got to be brave. But i thought so much about becoming friends with the fear and not be afraid of the feeling. At a hospital a young woman gave me a chocolate egg with an invention or a figure in it and it is called Kinder - egg and is very good to eat and to laugh at. And there was the figure of Diego the sable tooth tiger from Icetime. And i got so happy because he got a friend. And all my anxiety cured. And today Diego the real cat saved my life by being extremely kind and friendly to me. He did not want me to leave. So everything got real. So even in all happening here i am at peace and have ataraxia and is peaceful after a good pasta meal. Smiling over that horses protects me. Oliver the new horse i am riding protected me against the same horse that Pegas One protected me against and he did not make the mare come near me and stood in front of me to protect me. So by the stable i have been saved without i had been dead. I am so thankful to Sissel the woman who owns the stable and the animals. She is amazing and is able to laugh about all happening. I talked to the police today that won't help me and someone close revealed that she has been working together with the police and i have reacted that they have done nothing to save me and not answered on text messages. People has tried to make me bad about images and pictures and ruined my paintings i have her to click my mind. I am sure who it is and some has revealed themselves but the police does nothing. And it is terror on Norwegian ground and i wonder if the governments are involved because i wrote to them for help and has heard nothing. I wrote to the security office. And don't know how long i will live. I am not ready to leave right now from my son and all the life building up around me. It is a new path for me with the stable and the horses. I put out two videos more. Because people knows how they do this mentally terror. And it is intelligent and many people are involvolved. They trigged a mentally well nurse to paranoid schizophrenia and i am well again on my own treatment and my own skills it heals people and animals and i have proven it today by Oliver that hurts in his neck and in his shoulder and is a bit stiff riding. He heals of my treatment and medical touch. I put out the videos to know that the same thing happening to Micheal Jackson is happening to me.

The Secret of Mona Lisa

Mona Lisa is here with me in a silk print i got at a vintage store when i was hospitalized. The best advice for hospitalized people is to always have a picture of art they like or have painted themselves to always keep you as yourself. I got this print as a token of the Secret of Rhonda Bynrnes. Practised by the Lord above it keep you in humor and up for surprises, because God surprises in a good way and have humor and allows you to be yourself. I have studied Leonardo Da Vinci a lot and he suffered a lot because of people and rumors and stayed strong by knowing medical and exercise treatment and was always kind towards people. He was an unforgettable genius that still has secrets to relieve. I am in peace and joy by telling you my interpret ion of The Mona Lisa. I am in strong believe that she was pregnant and was carrying the child with great love to a man. And who it was might never be relieved. Leonardo Da Vinci focused on Jesus and his learning and i believe Leonardo Da Vinci was leaded by voices and had trust in God to go through all he went through. I have studied so much that people who have researched on him told that if he lived today he probably had been put on medication. Nature and painting heals. So study for life the world and see how beautiful it is because i believe paradise is to be found by us here on this planet. Walk in eternal peace and stay kind and you get saved. Love everyday because there is always a solution. Leonardo was very kind and loved mankind and earth no matter what happened to him. Love him for all he was to this planet and his main goal for all he did was to protect - so maybe he protected Mona Lisa and her child by painting her ?

The Living Novel " The Idiot "

I have hard times her. But write on two books. One of Pegas One that passed away yesterday and i am in grieve and tears. She was so kind and beautiful and the most special horse i have ever met. She healed me and let my life go into a new direction. She got much worse in her leg and could not suffer this way anymore. I write about her memory soon when i feel good enough to find the right words for her. It is a huge loss that Pegas One has passed away and i feel empty and in grieve. But work to save my life and my family. Because somebody has done something to me. I have been trying to buy three domains that is worth a lot and was to work with as three firms. The buying of the domains has been manipulated and somebody knew. I have proofes that i have bought them last year in mails. But the registration went wrong. And i don't know what happened when i bought them again. The purchase went through but no money went out from my card. It was for a new life and a new future. And i have written about the domains in the fantacycrime novel " The Idiot " about a paranoid schizophrenic woman that wants to save Norway and The King in the country from rumors and crime. I just did not have a clue who the idiot was - but it is revealing itself who it is. The truth is so hard that i have to put it in a fiction crime novel to save people and make them see the reality and how paranoid schizophrenia can be, because the hero in the novel is an agent working all over Euorpe and USA to save mankind to understanding. But i am worried that the novel gets out in real in this blogg. So continue reading this blogg and know that people get hurt a lot in this world. I have so many experiences from my life and hospitalized and know the way to healing from schizophrenia and i know a lot psychology because i have read a lot and is educated a nurse. Yeasterday the home based nursing called me and i am not under their treatment and i am not sure if they wanted to put me to hospital. My family don't want that and not me either. I have connections to the norwegian army in my family and we work hard here to save my life to a secure place in a better apartment than what i live now. I fight that all people in the world shall get a secure and worthy life no matter what has happened. So keep on following me and se what happens with people that are strong and smart.

Saved By Talkmore Smartphone Company in Norway

Talkmore is for me the best smartphone company in the world. But i have really to say that i have a mobile phone/cellphone that is over ten years old from Ericsson. The battery is fantastic and it works for my use. I don't sit with the phone all the time and is happy by that. I have a better time with that Talkmore have a tv - commercial with children in summer time swimming and having fun saying in the commercial : " Call Mona. " And that is my name. I laughed a lot at this and was so thankful for a beautiful commercial making life and imagination for me better. It put in a defense believe and you can get that from different angles in the world. I have talk more as my connection to the smartphone net and is happy with that. So Thank YOU TALKMORE for SAVING LIVES :-)

Working For My Life And The Law In Norway

It has been difficult days. In Norway many people are afraid of the police walking around with guns and being armed because the danger of terror and against mental ill people. I have done nothing wrong and people and nurses around me has broken the law. It is illegal by law in Norway to stear a person into sucicidal behavior and suicide. It is the same sentence as murder. And the police has done with me. I have a case against Aalesund Hospital because of isolation and have proves on that they broke the law in Norway, The Human Rights and UN`s CPRD. But the police never contacted me to take an interwiev of me to hear about my experiences. And i am very wounded by the isolation and the treatment. There happened things in my apartment and i sent the thing placed in my apartment to the police and they did not come here to investigate. It happened more in my apartment and they did not arrive here to look what happened and the proof is still here. I photographed all things happening in my apartment so i have proofs. And it is a municipal apartment that many has keys to and it lies in an area wich is easy to get in and look if i go out. It has not been anyone here since our dog was here. I stopped calling the police because they were unpolite when i called them and treated me very bad. So i started to send them mails to get help. It has been over months and they have not answered the mails. I took the last mail and wrote to them about their psychology about this : " Do you want to trig me angry to shoot me ? " I did not get an answer on that mail either. And i have read the laws of Norway and The Law About Police. They don't have the right to treat me this way - they shall treat with kindness and help all ill people - it says in the law. If the Police arrive here at my place or do me something outside they can get 21 years in prison. Because i have been suicidal and dead in grieve. I have thankfully people helping me - but they wait until the police do something or step over the line. It is sad for Norway this. And the last days i have been on Facebook telling my story because no newspaper in Norway wanted to take the case and write about it. So i don't trust media either. I don't have a clue on what i shall do but some nurses support me and are brave and want the police to go to prison. The Police is a service unit that shall secure all citizens. And i have the right to use a part in the law to arrest them myself if they arriwe here. I have done hard work and is exhausted. I hope the police don't pressure me to get hospitalized in their psychological treatment against me - that is also forbidden. I keep up with the case. Thank You For Reading.

The Garbage Clowns

I have started a new art project to show that people and especially children have the right to feel angry. The pictures are painted in kindness and laugher about feelings. The secret is to not be afraid of anger and never being told that angry feelings are dangerous as a child and bullied for it. In anger there is defense and will of life to show borders and keep mentally strong. I paint this pictures to heal people bullied and protect children that accepts the pictures and laughs at them. It is dangerous to talk to children in a way that hurts them and deprive their thoughts for natural feelings. It is therapy for me to paint this pictures together with a song that show a clown. It is to heal from deprivation and shrinking of the brain as a child. It is to keep all safe and get away people that hurts children and adults it is painted in protection and safety to get a good laugh. I am very kind and i don't think i will sell a lot of the garbage clowns because they are meant to throw you're feelings away on this pictures and keep you in a good laugh. I am not a rasict and the clown just turned up in a colur of skin i like a lot. So you have the right to be angry but don't go with the anger. If you are not scared of you're anger and yourself you will get a lot of self confidence and security and make it though to ataraxia. I state of inner peace and happiness that are seldom. I love Metallica for giving me music therapy and i got advice from my grand dad a war sailor to listen to them when i was 14 years old. And i have had a good time painting this picture and it is called " pain-thing " - you suffer for the art to make it through and might get a lot of comments. Paint if you feel bad it gets you better and heals you a lot. So welcome to follow my creation of garbage clowns because sometimes anger is garbage but you are the right to feel it. Listen to the " Unforgiven " and know that Metallica is strong but very kind and so is the garbage clown of today. I believed the Lord created a miracle to protect me today with kinder - eggs - chocolate eggs with little inventions in that you build together. I will laugh a lot but hurt of Pegas One until she heals. I am going there tomorrow and are looking forward to that. I carry a picture of a horse in my mind and they get grumpy to :-) Hope you get a good laugh - stay strong and thank you for reading :-) I am very kind towards people :-)

The Litle Magic Of Life In Cold Water Times

It feels like someone poors cold water over me in these days - i try to tell my story public to get help and i have good support. Yesterday i was invited to friends on dinner and wine. We watched a movie and had a good time. It is good to have people to talk to when you look for a place to hold you're focus and that is to God and Ataraxia to have a good life in difficult and poor times. It is hard to manage and i won't play a role with that it is easier than it is. Poverty is a difficult situation for the world society and there are billions. But it is manageable here in Norway to have little money but i work to get people to help the suffering with mental illness and poverty. WHO has estimated that depression is the worlds largest disease in 2020. And i think they are right - but i am worried of the world society that many will go in psychosis of the severe traumas in the world. People need to find strength and get inner peace. Some think even that it is cool to be angry ? I don't understand this. I know a lot of very brave people and they are not angry but extremely kind but can use their temper if needed. It is to get a control in life that makes you feel free no matter what the situation are. I don't write so much today because i struggle a bit with life. But have laughters together with people calling me and people i am calling :-) Everything is kind here and Happy the budgie wants my attention she yells at me. I laugh so much of her. To find courage in life together with peace there is one man good for that and that is Johnny Cash - i put out a video of him - stay brave to all - the impossible can be done :-)

The Perfect Nation

I am thinking in the last hours of the night. When i have been awake missing our dog " One Step Closer " alias Toya to guard me and make me sleep. I sleep at daytime afraid that someone comes in the apartment at night. Sacred hours have been shared with the Lord above in prayers and in laughter of the Perfect Nation. I have a lot of humor. But don't laugh at what i am writing now. There is a struggle in Norway to be perfect and smart for all people living here. Even the crown prince works for the smarts people and that is good. But what about the people suffering with the same abilities but don't have the same possibilities in family and economy. They believe they are stupid and get diagnosis as ADHD etc. I pray for all the children, mothers and fathers suffering in this country called Norway that is profiled as the best country in the world to live in. But what has happened when they kill a single mother suffering from praying and fighting for that nobody hurts in this world and have all needs fulfilled ? I prayed for Bono and this song to make it through for years. But who really listen when the system of the creation of government create a war in society and in humans ? People die in Norway in the psychiatric of wrong treatment and it is people we can't loose. All is equal in this earth but not here in Norway. It is a rich country and everybody wants to be the best. Some are clever and are satisfied with what they have. But the society wants to be more and more perfect and it creates a role in people that they think they have to be perfect to stay in the society and get accepted or maybe get the best man or women.
I got ugly on purpose. I gained weight from 54 kilos to 97 kilos to get people off my back and stop to look up at me. They wanted to know all about beauty and body to be at their best. And what has happened when a isolated patients sits and treats nurses how to be at their best at questions from them. It made me feel like all is : " I want it all ! " It was different ages from young to elder people asking me for advice. I have worked hospitalized with nurses and patients and never got the real rest i need. I just want peace - and it is not psychotic to want and pray for world peace and it is not a diagnose. So if i get hospitalized of writing my blog and the truth i wonder what Norway really is. Nothing seem to work anymore. The doctors have been good to me lately but i don't know over time -they broke all my trust. I just have one single wish " Peace " for all mankind and not the struggle of being the most sexy and the most beautiful and the very best. I just wanted to be me and a mother to my son and work as a nurse. It is not the best payed job in Norway but i was happy. I just want to have easy days walking the dog Toya and get nursing from here and be together with Pegas One. I don't need all the world. But i want all people to live no matter who they are. It is an impossible question that shall get you hospitalized ?

I wonder so much about the perfect nation Norway because there was stolen from me a manuscript to a movie - so beautiful that the meaning was to treat suicidal people and give them life back. I am inventive and designed the computer " Eye-one " and it got stolen from me at a unit. I don't have a clue what is going on and nobody does anything. It has made me like a big question mark and i wonder why people steals from mental ill patients or the crazy people. Maybe i am one of the real crazy people that manage to live through this with a smile and laughter. But it hurts to be poor when you have all you're mind functioning hospitalized. Norway i don't understand but i walk in my little zone of Peace. And maybe i created world peace for myself ? Maybe i reached my goal ? I have ataraxia and are happy and joyful - but today i miss the little nurse " One Step Closer " alias Toya to guard me at nights. She is a dream and so loving that all the world can be if she and me are together. And is it to much to ask for in Norway to be left alone and just stay together with the people you love and welcome new friends in kindness. The world can be saved if all humans find inner peace. They don't want any war then and the bravest thing is to just walk away and then you will laugh a lot. I wish you peace of mind and knowing that the reality is that Norway is not the most perfect country in the world. There is a lot of struggles and difficulties in a lot of people and many people suffering. I just pray for that the peace will stay - because others get peace and joy from me. So the rest i have left in life i give to others in peace. And tomorrow i walk and fetch Toya to stay here so i can sleep so not the CIA-pretenders get in the apartment. I got clicked of an image on the internet an hour ago - it was a bad picture of a x-ray of a human brain. I don't like it at all because i own a lot of domains. I am a kind person - educated as a nurse and just asking the world for peace - together with Toya which is named after this song in U2 " One Step Closer " from the album Vertigo - and she made me knowing :-)

Investigation case against Aalesund Hospital and How The Police Works

Thank you all for reading and i hope you find good help and inspiration on that miracles do happen any how much you have suffered. I was closed in on hospital unit of the picture " Soul " and the actions in nurses. I got isolated and had closed connection with the outer world for over two years whiteout being so very ill but treated very wrong of the system. To survive i watched " The Inner Circle " with Matt Damon, Angelina Jolie and Robert De Niro. And that made me understand what they did to my reality and how to keep it together. I suffered but they did not break me. They said a lot of things to confuse my reality when i was isolated. And for seven months i was not out in free air more than ca. 20 times - and it was short.
When i was treated good at another unit after nearly two years with bad treatment and " clicking of reality " and stupid treatment of people who don't know psychiatric and that is just as bad. You have to bee good and stable mentally to work in psychiatric and i found out that many people are not. I gave the case to the city and the municipal police in this county. But they have not questioned me about the case or interwievd me at all. I have written several mails to them. And things have been disappearing from my apartment and i have found medical papers on medication i have not taken in my medicine closet. Dvd has been stolen - probably to click me with pictures mentally. It all stopped after the dog " One Step Closer " alias sleepy dog " Toya " was here. Nobody has gone in the apartment after she was her. I slept so good when she was her and i get myself a german shepherd soon to train to guard and protect dog very stable and friendly. There are many keys to the apartment because it is an apartment to people with extra need for help. I got it only for six months because i am buying a new one. The police is reported a lot about all happening and i have because of their silence in long time and lack of work informed the countrys King about what happens around me. I am afraid it is corruption in this case. I know in one incident at the unit that it was. More i can't say to protect myself. The police in Norway carry guns now because of danger for terror and mentally unstable persons being angry at them and in the psychology in the police treatment of me i wonder if they trig me angry to shot me ? I just question this and wait for answer from the police because i mailed them public with report law about this question in use of psychology in this case of me. The hospital unit broke all laws in Norway and Human Rights and UN laws forming Norways treatment about citizens being ill. I don't know what to do for help - but i have called a newspaper to investigate this case together with me. I read nursing and read the law - i have done nothing wrong and was put to hospital in free will and had rest pulse on 52 - thinking that i just was in the unit for some weeks. They treated me ill and i write my blogg to save and inspire people hurting. I have treated myself with my own nursing skills to a miracle without diagnose and thanks my son and Pegas One for being alive, strong and in mental balance - i had never gotten unstable against the police. The song i put in is Metallica with " One " - because i was treated so bad that one night i had it like this of all the impressions from doctor, nurses, medications and not knowing what was going on in the world. Metallica is good music therapy and can heal traumas and get you braver - i keep you oriented about this if you want to follow this case - i hope i survive this case. I fight against the system but go with the flow in my mind. I smile now thanking the lord above for making me strong again. Live for everyday and nurse you're mental health. A break down can get you stronger when you rebuild. Have a good day ! :-)

Better Times Pegas One Heals

I got a message yesterday that lifted tons of my whole body. Pegas One has not broken the leg. She has stepped wrong on the fot. I am so happy but still worried for her if she is in pain. Because she can hardly walk. But the veterinary and the owner Sissel think it will heal. And so do i. Pegas One is a very awake horse that follows on everything happening. So being elder don't have to say you calm down, maybe the opposite. Because when you have learned society and rules it is easier to be all free. I will give Pegas One all the peace she can get when i am there with her. And i asked Sissel to buy her if the injury did not heal so Pegas One could go as a companion and a horse to socialize a younger horse. Because i will buy a younger horse, and maybe a colt to make him connecting and in behavior in my way. It is the way i treat them. And horses gets often at peace with me. I don't know why but the last weeks it seems like animal sleeps around me. I wondered if my budgie Happy also had gotten Ataraxia. She is so peaceful and cosy and sit and blow up her feathers and being thick and cosy and she make little cosy noises. But she is a rock and roller and the budgie love the band Advenged Seven Fold and Metallica - then she gets all crazy and sings a lot to the tunes. Happy sits and listen to my voice a lot because i talk to her very much. It makes me not feeling alone. Because i was in grieve when my son moved to Oslo, but it is the reality of life and something i shall be very proud of and happy for him for. Because he is making it good in life and have a really good time. I manage to be happy about this, but i sometimes feel alone. But loneliness developed you're thoughts into creativity and i walk and go hiking, exercise and stay in tune with my books and my novels. A publisher wanted a book from me, it is a self help book to treat mental illness by different techniques to exercise self esteem and self confidence and the inner picture about yourself that creates you're personality and you're identity. Be proud of who you are because there is only one person of you on the entire earth. Nobody else has you're DNA- code. So really nobody else than you can be you. Make the best out of you're life and know that when problems or illness in yourself or in others you love shows up. You are more than strong to handle the situation and life. I recommend living a soulife because then you master you're emotions and are not afraid of what other people will think about you or say about you. Stay strong in you're own personal believes and know that God is with you. God is so kind and have such great love for us that he also is with the people not believing in God. Because they can also do the work of God with their love and care. Be brave in all you are. Emotions don't stay in you forever. Thank You For Reading - Have A Happy Day - I have a good one :-)

The Danger About Medication In The Psyciatric Health Field

Some years ago i got hospitalized of acute psychosis. I was just scared of the treatment and being hospitalized and that trigged a crisis in me. And i got very scared. More scared that psychotic. At arriving the unit i talked to a good and caring nurse. Actually the one i like best at the hospital. She is elder and don't pretend to be something other than she is. She knows good care by being secure and know comforting and peaceful talking. But i refused to take medication in tablets. Because i have re-active psychosis when i get ill. I hope i never get that again. The nurses got very angry and personal upset of me not taking the medication and talked to me like i was an object. And that is the worse way to treat a peson. You want to be a human with all the allowed feelings of life no matter where you are in life. I did not get angry i was quiet and peaceful but talked to them. The doctor decided to give me an acute psychosis injection with " Cisordinol-Acutard " Lundbeck ". I think i gave me a very high dose because i got extremely ill. I nearly died. For several days i had black out and did know nothing about what happened around me or in the environment. I sat talking to myself to survive and not get filled with anxiety. I could not breathe proper and i had a sound in my throat that was awful. And i got damaged in the larynx ( throat ) of this. I had confusion and was very sad that the unit did not call my family to tell how ill i was so i could have them with me and say goodbye if i died. Nobody did anything. They just put me in a room without any conversation but the bad part was that they gave me even more medication to the injection medication working in my body. I had it like this for over a week. I read today about reporting side effects. That health care workers shall report the side effects of a medication to the medical government. The catalogue in Norway that register all medication. I still can't eat all kinds of food because of the damage in my throat. I have been terrified the medication and scared of reacting like this on other drugs. I have not done that and one medication works good on me in acute psychosis but because of side effects i can't stay long on this. I tell all doctors to start always on a very low doze or treat at first with tranquilizers, calming medication, because that can work just as good as medication for psychosis. There is danger in the regulation of hormones in the brain as dopamine and serotonins and the working of nerve cells in the brain. I recommend working with good nurses that knows how to treat a person and treat them with good communication and common sense. I work for that patients get secure and optimal health treatment and the drugs are just a little side of the persons life story. There need to be developed trust so the person can tell what is really wrong. See beyond the diagnose and treat all as the best humans in the world. Because all shall get the same needs fulfilled. I did not help that i was educated as a nurse. It took several years before i got a diagnose. But when i got a diagnose they treated me as if i was an idiot. I write the crime novel : " The Idiot " to tell that patients are not the idiots but really smart and most of the more caring and have developed nurse skills of being in the psychiatric field for a while. I got a new experience. I was this autumn hospitalized at a medical unit for 24 hours with suspicion on heart decease ( nothing was wrong ) - and i realized that me and another patient from a mental institution behaved the best and most peaceful. Don't treat the patient to loose all their skills in life and only be at peace all the time. Because there is more than the ego - there is a whole body to treat and a nervous system that shall function optimal to get the best behavior. Try out medication in low dozes and never go agains the laws by the medication from the maker of the medication that medication for psychosis shall not be used together with other psychosis medication. It is not right to play hazard with patients life. I am scared that many doctors are to into their own believes and are being hazards and taking risks with patients life. They have done with mine. I have gotten a lot of medication and have evidence in my medical journal. It ruined my signals in the nervous system and it function well again because of connecting and riding the horse Pegas One. So treat a patient with love and wanting to save their lives and not ruin them. You shall take medication in psychosis and relax - but it has to be a doze that the body and mind can handle in the metabolism. I still lives and hope i will do for many more years. And of all the struggle i reached inner peace and confidence. But get a kind and good communication with the doctor and demand cognitive treatment. It saves you back to life. Patients needs to be conscious and get the information about all medication they get. So to doctors secure the patients by giving them all you're best and optimal treatment because you are educated to do so. Thank You For Reading. I am all healthy again :-)

The Secret About Inner Peace : Ataraxia

For many years ago i was diagnosed in my medical journal in a hospitalization with Ataraxia. I lost it for a while but is back to this mental and body state that keeps you in a stable nervous system that gives you normal behavior and normal thoughts. It is a state of seldom inner peace and happiness. And it creates miracles in everyday life with that you have you're creativity all the time and life is not boring but filled with beauty no matter what you're losses are and the problems. It is not possible by todays society to be in this sacred place all the time because of what happens to the world society and the environment you live in. But it is a peaceful place to return to where you can recover from all problems. You stay mentally strong and are not afraid of what others may think of you. You stay in love towards all humanity but has you're clear borders. You live in a than fullness to everyday and it is so beautiful that you think heaven is here on earth. Even if it is not.
You laugh a lot and have a joyful time with all humans. You select you're days by clear goals and stabilization to know in you're mind what you focus on. You don't need to push you're mental limits. But struggles makes you stronger and learn you to focus so ataraxia is easier to achieve for someone that has struggled a lot such as mental ill people and people with other illnesses. It takes patients and in prayers to the Lord above to get to this place. You get in inner balance and nearly never angry. It is a very kind place to be in you're mind and body and you stay with love and care all the time.
It is reached in struggle with giving up all needs. And poverty becomes a blessing that you receive more joy. You get stabilized you're needs to a natural way with great love in you for others and yourself. But be not surprised that you might end up with loving others and see their beauty more than yourself. It takes daily practise in prayers. It takes will power, but you can lean back and relax also. You need the basal needs to be fulfilled such as water, good food and have love around you. You don't longer focus on outer beauty and end up more beautiful in you're soul. Balanse yourself with prayers if you will reach ataraxia and be without a mental diagnose and have a happy life where you're dreams are being fulfilled after Gods time and will. Don't force life to come to you but relax and live with it. Thank you for reading - wish you the best for life :-)

A Celebration To Macgyver

This is one of my favorite tv- series and i thank the Lord above for the presence in life of Richard Dean Anderson. I have watched the series several of times together with my son for many years ago. We need Macgyver in the world and children have saved lives by watching Macgyver in action. To understand the reality of Macgyver and The Phoneix foundation is that people can play a real role as themselves by understanding the psychology and the focus on reality and care in the tv-show. There is real courage, action and all you need to develop life skills in kindness. It is to be learned from for children and adults and a family watching Macgyver together can save the world. Because the children has something they love together with their parents and they get acceptance for their dreams. Many children are scared of the world society today and needs Macgyver. I hope that tv stations can send the movies over again and that parents can buy it to their kids so their kids can grow in harmony getting real courage and never bully but protect. I celebrate Macgyver today by taking the time to watch the movies over again and remember all the good time we had as our own interpret ion of the Phoenix foundation in real life as a nurse and son. All people no matter who they were was welcome and we had such a good and happy time. Beeing ourselves but with the hero of Richard Dean Anderson with us everyday.
Today i have learned that people with mental illness can watch Macgyver and adapt a reality that is good and making it through in the world with courage, kindness, love and wisdom. Because some tv- movies can heal you by giving you hope and a good peaceful time with the one you love and give you life back. So i dust of the dvd shelf and watch Macgyver again. And i know i will remember good times and laugh a lot and adapt back all i forgot. To Richard Dean Anderson - You are a true hero and saves lives.

How To Treat Psychosis And Get Them Well In 15 Minutes

To treat psychosis the best way you need to relax down the situation with a coffee cup and the person treating the psychosis can't be a person on a mission in life with their own goals by the ego so the patients get a victim of a story to another persons life. It needs to be a person perception the life on an unselfish way with care and love for the patient. I have been under and seen a lot of bad treatment of healthcare workers. The person that showed up in my life and thought me how to treat psychosis was my son and i am so proud of him giving me knew knowledge of treatment go acute psychosis of just being himself. The first thing he did was to look beyond the diagnose. He looked at me as his mom and i had been worried for my son seeing me in psychosis and always taken the signs and went to hospitalization before i got into post psychosis. What happened when my son saw me in psychosis was that he laughed a lot. It was the weirdest thing he had ever experienced and he is a very solid, strong and thought person not afraid of asking questions. And that changed the whole situation. My son interwied me and asked : " Where are you now in you're head mommy ? " I had to answer this as best as i could. And my son accepted all my answers. And accepting is the key factor. Just accept the whole situation and don't try to force a change in the psychotic person. My son wanted to know all about my thoughts and psychosis. So i had to explain him about pre - per- post psychosis. A person don't need to stay in psychosis for a long time. Look beyond the diagnose and don't analyze so you get funny looks in you're face because psychotic persons reacts on that and can get angry. Don't be afraid of anger. It is just a feeling but don't build under the anger with that the person treating the patient gets angry. Then it get personal and unprofessional. My son talked and stimulated to my intelligence and the everyday. He made coffee and took all the danger out of the situation by laughing and being calm and steady. And showing that with his body language. He said : " Remember i am an adult now mommy and you can talk about all you want to me i handle it. " And so i did. I got out of my psychosis and normal and so peaceful that when we decided that i should go to the hospital. I really did not need to because i was treated better than ever before. I sat in the hospital at peace and so proud of my son that i had only 52 in rest pulse and normal blood pressure. On other times i had been in crisis with elves high in my body. My son thought me to interwiev psychotic person and relate all the talking to reality but in real interest. Because people with psychosis are just the same as you and me. They are not ill all the time and often extremely intelligent. By talking with someone solid safe and who really cares a psychotic person can learn reality and adapt new thought that make them well. We are not alone in this world. I get healthy and all normal and very loving together with my son and he saved my life. I will write a short book about treating acute psychosis and make them well in 15 minutes because it is possible with good TLC and stimulating to the intelligence in the person. And you can get a greater talk than ever before by being really curious and caring whitout invading the person. Let all talk in their speed and look beyond diagnose, pretend like there is no diagnose and that the person can get all normal because they do. So make some relaxed fun and good food if someone gets psychotic and talk over this and get the person normal and maybe better than before because the psychotic person gets someone to trust and are not alone anymore and that can heal them like a miracle. But it is really only common sense and my son has a lot of that. I am so proud of him. He got job offer because of this in the psychiatric field. The unit that treated me kind wanted him to work there. He was so good to me that he was there several times a week and played chess and scrabble together with me and we grow closer together and i had to realize that he is a grown up that make it good in a very healthy way and he is going to be a physical therapeut and i have managed good in life. But remember to give you're children credit for what they achieve on their own and my son turned up after several years with psychiatric treatment as the best one. I still wonder about this because his treatment worked like magic. So look beyond the diagnose and ask questions. Don't be afraid to ask. But do it in a gentle way. You can end up laughing a lot :-) We still laughs about this happening. So be aware that there can be persons without education with interest in people with love and care that has better social skills and are better than the best health care workers and can change the system only by chilling out and talk :-) So give it a try. Make it peaceful. Don't push and don't get angry - just ask questions and see what happens :-) Don't be surprised if they all end up normal and sleeps a very good night and heals.

Elder Horses Knows Us Humans

I am restless this night and can't sleep worrying for Pegas One and the injury in her leg. I can't bare to loose her i love her with all my heart. She saved my  life being wise and study me. This picture is taken on the day i first met her and she had just protected me and she studied me a lot. I was healed of a mental illness of a kind hospital unit. But two and a half year with hospitalization and bad treatment had put its scars on my mind and soul. I was breath taken by Pegas Ones courage to save my life and turn it around to instant trust in the horse and her kindness. Horses are very wise. I did not know that Pegas One is 23 years old when this picture is taken. She just stood calm and studied me. I wondered so much why she looked me in the belly all the time. She stood and looked at it for a long time in peace. I wondered if she knew something. Horses are sensitive and feels moods and energy from us humans. I wondered if she could sense my grieve and if the horse wondered if i was a mother. She brought a smile to my face but also deep and lonely thoughts. I have one son that i love with all my life and soul and do whatever it takes for him to help him with his goals and dreams. But he is a solid young intelligent man that want to make it all on his own and i have to let him do that in love and care. I wondered if Pegas One sensed my grieve. I have wanted a lot of children. When i was younger and not ill i wanted a whole little gang of crazy kids. I love them and care so much for them. But i have been hurted a lot so it was with one son. I have grieved of not giving him brothers and sisters and being a happy family. Lonely thought can drive you to depression. I had a moderate depression and did not need hospitalization but the doctors wanted me to give it a try. I realized then of clear thinking that it was so bad that my only place was together with my son. And i gave him all my best until for four years ago. I got medication i got very ill from and had nightmares and was very scared of getting this medication again. I got into a place where it all was guarded up all the time to not get into hospitalization because i did not want to leave my place in life that is together with my son. I have not cried of this. And by the short time i have had together with Pegas One i have healed of this. She has treated me so kind and looks at me all the time so study me. She is extremely kind and i think she knew my grieve over losses in life. She brought a mommy back to herself with laughter and joy and i know by the injury she has and the possibility of loosing her and letting her go that i will break down and let all my past go. It will be hard times but it is to get in contact with the real pain and letting it go and let it rest in the past. Pegas One lifts burdens of my shoulders and she does even if she is injured. She is a courageous horse and humming so load to me in the stable in joy that it was like she said : " No time for grieving. " In my reflections over the connection with Pegas One she heals me and make my life to the better. And maybe better than ever before. Even if i have to maybe let her go. It is sad. But some meetings and some things in life you never get to explain with the right words how beautiful it are. Pegas One was a lifelong dream coming true. Maybe just for a short time but it was there and it was real. And in spirit Pegas One still lives and in my prayers she lives forever in kindness to the wisest and kindest horse on this earth. She sensed it and knows she saved my life and she shows joy of it. So treat the elder horses as the best. Because they have followed people and know us humans and gives us love until they die - even in great pain. Pegas One gives me courage to tell the truth and i wish for her to live a long life because she is a fighter like me. I will wonder my whole life on who the horse Pegas One is :-) She is more than a dream and for me sent from God to me. Believe in miracles they can happen in the strangest and most surprising way. And Pegas One leads me to not be afraid anymore but get back all my courage for life. She cleansed my soul from traumas and i hope others can learn from it that animals in therapeutic way is often better than humans. You don't always need to speak in words but silence. So i whisper to Pegas One in my own way and she sleeps of this. So i can give Pegas One something back for saving my life. It is night here and i go to bed. Knowing that elder horses can be used in saving lives. Because they do :-)

Moodtherapy

It has been a hard and exhausting day with the injury of Pegas One. It don't need time to cope with the pain. The right song can heal you and give you strength to carry on. This band has lived on the edge and still does in a kinder way. Some of the band members have had a hard time and been hospitalized by the everyday nightmare they was in. They live good lives and are so kind that they have written : " Dear God. " My son introduced me to the band some years ago. I had never heard such music before. He told me : " Mom they fix you're head if you listen to them. " And so i did and my son gave me the best music therapy in the world. My son laughs at me because the next time Advenged Seven Fold is in Norway to play i go to concert. My son laughed so much because he said : " You probably will be the oldest person there. " So maybe granny me may go to a concert and laugh. They get me always in spirit and with a smile that they are really the kindest men ever by  having this in Sheperd of Fire : " aiding the weak. " I am strong but felt a lot of weakness today. Thought go to my son and Advenged Seven Fold and that puts a big smile on my face and gets me to spirit. So find songs you like and get music therapy. Even all normal people does this every day. Remember you are stronger than you think and i hope you like : " Sheperd of Fire. " I have to say i got a good friend that is two years older than me and loves them and tells that they have the best music ever and the greatest guitar player in the entire world. So love them and accept them for what they are. Angels come in different disguise :-)

Pegas One Was Sad

Pegas One was very sad today of the injury. The left leg was hurted more than i thought and she had difficulties to move around in the box. She don't put weight on the fot. I was in tears of this and very sad and Sissel the owner accepted and understood all my feelings about this and that helps a lot. I groomed her and made her relax and she hummed at me. But she was herself and got a bit nasty of wanting more carrots. She is a beautiful horse and has been so in spirit that she looks like a young horse of good caring and nursing of the owner Sissel. We talked a while about the injury and Sissel felt it would go very good with her, but she prepared me for that it could also go the other way. The next week is critical in how the leg heals and how much pain she has because she is a old horse. But Sissel and the veterinary looks after her. I had a good time with Pegas One even though i was in pain and in tears. It hurts a  lot that Pegas One got injured after so short time together. It is hard that life happens but i have to go with reality and hope for the best. Sissel will call me this week so i can hear how it goes with Pegas One. She loved me petting her and relaxed a lot and it is good for a horse to receive love when they are injured. They seek contact and comfort and Pegas One is the kindest and wisest horse on this earth i believe. She knows people and know what she wants. But it hurted a lot to see her sad. Horses and all animals have feelings and personality just like us humans and we have to treat them the best way.
I did not feel up for riding because all the emotions in me made me exhausted. But Sissel said : " You shall ride it will do you good and drag you away from the feelings you have towards Pegas One now. " So we groomed the horse Pegas One protected me against. And " Frida " is the kindest towards me, i guess Pegas One thought her a lesson. To ride for a little while made me feel much better and put the smile back in my face. And i could leave the stable in trust and hope that Pegas One heals. I pray for that the next weeks. It will take a while to heal.
In the car back from the stable i got so much better. I sensed the moods from the cosy winter landscape and felt like it was christmas. I did not get that feeling this year. But the horses treat me sensomotoric back to myself and all my senses that has been cluttered down because of hospitalization and medication and soon all the medication will be out of my body. I handle strong emotions and life, and we are not alone in this life. There is alway people understanding you when you talk honest about what is wrong. I have hopes now and don't cry anymore. I even got a smile on my face of " Frida " and Sissel. I love to be back in life, even though reality can be hard. When someone saves you're life and change it into a miracle it is hard to be faced with the fact that there is possibilities for letting go. But i love every second i have together with Pegas One. And she saves me with being kind even in great pain. It is courage in horses and they are extremely kind so love them for all they are. If you let them they carry you're burdens and take them away from you. Anyway how it goes will Pegas One for me be remembered in a entire lifetime as the kindest horse for me on this earth. Believe that miracles can happen because they do. In all the small spaces. For me today it was to feel the cosy sense of christmas and snow. So bit by bit the horses can change you back to a better life than ever. So love them for their stamina, love and beauty they serve you a lifetime or for only the time they have left in life. Pegas One gave me love today and it healed me with letting tears roll down my face and that heals. So forever faithful to Pegas One. I go out to the stable when i can to look after her and give her carrots to comfort her. And see if she relaxes and sleeps of my presence together with her. It comforts me that i can help her. Maybe just in the little but i do all that i can do. And i am not a miracle worker, only human that understands pain and needs. But it can be life changing for a person or an animal. So believe you handle reality always because we are always stronger than we think. And i was today. I did not break down. I was in peaceful tears. Pegas One did not like me crying and wanted me to stop. She wants me to be me and laugh and that is the joy and Pegas One message to me. She is a dream come true even if the reality is hard. So for now i hang in here in this life with all its trouble with hot coffee, chocolate and a warm living room. I heal by life and not by an institution and that is the best way. So believe in everyday miracles because you can get better than before.

Pegas One Is Injured

Today is a day in tears and in grieve. The smiling horse on the picture Pegas One a black beauty in real life of the breed Belgian Warmblood is injured in a leg after twisting it in the paddock after being scared of a lightning. It blew storm here yesterday. Sissel the owner called me to tell it to me so i was prepared for the injury of Pegas One when i go to the stable today. I took it all good in the phone. But when i hung up i broke into tears of the short time Pegas One and me has had together and she saved my life and saved me back to horses and my life again in optimal health. She got my mind functioning so i study and read again. And by my nurse study and reading about therapy riding there is forming by Pegas One and me a new psychiatric treatment that has the main goal : " Optimal Health and Optimal Behavious. " Pegas One thought me how to treat the nervous system in a human on the best way. And riding on a secure horse takes away traumas that you have had for life. It heals you in the connection with horses. Pegas One and me have connected so much that she sleeps and close her eyes when i groom her in my way after listening to her and the way Pegas One wants the grooming to be done. I talk to horses and listens to what they want and their needs. And so i do in humans, and humans often find spirit and their dreams together with me. And Pegas One managed by protecting and guarding me to give me a job in the stable that has the goal of working as a nurse with horses and psychiatric treatment to give hope, healing and stabilization of the nervous system and optimal health as the result. That people suffering can get better than before they got ill with new life skills. If i make it through with the book  i am writing about Pegas One and me she saves lives in a lot of humans. I am so in grieve and i was so happy that i felt it all to good to be real. I felt like i was in a so good reality that i felt i was in a better movie than i ever had seen myself by the love of Pegas One. She healed me back to life like a miracle. We don't know if she survive the injury because she is 23 years old and she is very wise. I don't know what Pegas One understands herself about the injury. And i am in tears and with so much love to her that i love her more than the three horses i have owned myself. She gave all my life back and formed a mother back to her son so he could laugh of his crazy mom again. Because i have a lot of humor when i am all me. But now it seems like my life is going to be hard. I have to met a life with soulife - with all kinds of feelings and take care and bee there for Sissel the owner of Pegas One because she has owned her for years. Pegas One has a daughter and that gives me hope that i can see some of Pegas One again if she leaves us. If she dies i will remember her in peace as the kindest horse on earth giving all her kindness and understanding to me with smile and humming and making me trust again and showing that i function as a nurse again with all my skills in that Pegas One connects to me and sleeps of my grooming. I am so worried for her and know that i break down and know that what happens is life. There is no movies in the real life only the hard reality. So treasure all the love in the world from humans and animals and love this earth. It is so beautiful and to look a horse in the eyes gives me faith that eternity exists and there is no such thing as amargeddon. The world will never go under because even animals fights for us humans. So be loved in all you are and remember when you are in grieve. You can break down and hide. But you can grow stronger. And a heart actually never breaks it is always possible to love again - stronger than before - even if it is a horse.

I have had a quote i formed in 2002 at my first hospitalization, and it is to be formed in the book by Pegas one and me. And it is beautiful words i have had with me in hope in getting back to horses. And Pegas One opens all feelings again in me. So maybe in worry and grieve grow stronger. I love the smiling horse Pegas One with all my heart.

" Sometimes each humanbeeing needs to be carried, and even the warrior - thats why the horse came "

My " New " Favourite Jacket

Everyday can change to the better with reaching goals. I was 97 kilos and thought i can mange to be 100 kilos and write a book about my life as soft and large. But i did not manage more when i got to 97 kilos because i was exhausted and to have had a very trained body and been in very good health it felt really bad being 97 kilos. So i started to diet down and did the impossible going down in weight with slow metabolism and medication. I am slim again and gone down in weight and can fit into clothes i bought when i went down in weight to have something to look forward to. And in this weekend i matched into this jacket. And it looked very good to black jeans and black boots. I held my head high again being me and feeling comfortable. It gives you self esteem to diet down and exercise. This jacket was bought as a dream to match it and it costed me only 28 usd / 200 nkr on sale. It is not a jacket that is in the fashion right now. But i don't care because it is me and i wear clothes as i want them to be for me and not the fashion catalogues and magazines because all in this magazines don't look good on all people and i don't like when all people dress the same. And it cost at the most regular a fortune and people take loans and credits and some even steals to get the style they want and that is not the real life. You can get a good style and a good look by going after what you really want and like. You often get quality then and look better than if you go after someone else's style. So go after what you like and wish for. And if you want to diet down and reach you're body potential at any age read in my blogg about how to diet down a secure way. It takes a bit longer but it pays more of because you don't lose muscles. And women after 25 must take care of theire body going down because they lose muscles and bone mass if they diet down fast, hard and the wrong way. My best advice is to eat cheap but good. Because the most healthy natural groceries are the cheapest. At least here in Norway. You don't need to use a fortune on a diet a man on 92 years old that was stronger than 20 years old thought me how to eat. So today i have shopped in tortillas, salad and a whole side of smoked salmon together with pesto and sour cream to have a happy and clean meal. It costed a fortune but i sometimes use this money on myself to stay healthy. So eat a lot of fish to stay strong. Because it is the best food for us humans. So have a nice day. Changing you're life to you're own life. With you're love and peace in it. Because it is possible everyday to reach goals. Realise that everyday life exists and to get used to the everyday gets the party life better. We are humans and that is the best thing to be lived the right way and always be up for helping others. In this way you get the best friendship by never letting someone think that they are weaker than you. Because they can grow stronger than you on you're love and kindness. Don't worry about this because you get protection and people who is there for you even on you're weakest and darkest days. So be ready for love. :-)

The Joy Of Everyday Living

Everyday living is easy. You get peace of mind and stabilization of the nervous system to function optimal. Live cause problems and it is to not seek them all the time but find you're center to live free in. And when you find you're center nothing can stop you from living the life you want. You have all you're possibilities ahead of you and you can reach them in the moment by staying all you and not the person others wants you to be. To be an adult gives you free chooses to form you're life the way you want it. And it is possible to get the life and the joy you want by doing you're goals, dreams and visions. It gives you inner peace and a normal good behavior to find you're life goals, dreams and visions. Everyday life can be for someone boring and they want something different and seeks all the time in outer spaces for something else. It creates unsatisfied behavior, depression and loneliness. But to find you're inner spaces that are free for you makes you kinder, more loving and more caring because when you remove all the mental clutter you shine through and people loves that person and want to be together with you. And everyday life gets exiting and mentally stimulating. You get friends you never thought you would have that brings you more joy and inner peace. By inner peace i also mean inner security. That nothing can break you if you stay in tune with the everyday life and do what you like and please. It is like a miracle is being transformed by you taking the right choises, and it is possible even on days you don't feel so good to have quality on everyday life. By people accepting you and that you accept that it is okay to not be on top every day because it is hard for all people to be on top every day. We shall do so much in the society, but what if you don't need to do so much ? What if someone told you : " It is okay not to be perfect " You can change by the second not being at you're best all the time. To dare to walk around in a baggy pants and a t- shirt just having easy good food and listen to music, waiting for visitors in the afternoon. Listening to you're budgie singing and having a happy time. Working a little bit with novels and washing clothes and go for a walk knowing that you have a solid platform of happiness just being relaxed. There will be storms in my life - i know that will come in the future. But i enjoy the presence and just being me and find all happiness and hope for a better day in this. Be easy and life gets easy :-)

Treating Shock By Mastering Reality

To treat a mental shock is to treat a sever trauma that influence a lot of energy and the nervous system. And todays society is facing a different reality about war, terror and crisis. A untreated trauma can cause Post Traumatic Stress Dissorder ( PTSD ) - It is important to come to a professional as fast as possible to avoid the side effects of sever trauma. A life treathening crisis can cause shock and get the person out of reality and only staying in the trauma for a very long time. But it is to be said that a panic attack can cause this kinds of traumas and superstitious linking to the event or the humans involved and control the persons activity and behavior.
A shock overwhelm our capacity to react. We can get frozen and paralyzed. Our Nervous system is not under conscious control. It is important that people around react at once and create trust and talk with a low peaceful voice to interact with the person. To give peace and comfort is the best solution in such a situation. Drag the person comforting out of the trauma it can prevent PTSD and give them back life at once.
Side effects of a trauma is normal reaction that is overwhelming but it needs to be treated and it is possible to come out stronger after a trauma with the right persons to talk to.
Side effects are :
- Strong memories ( flash backs ) and nightmares
- Avoiding places or humans that is connected or similar to what caused the trauma ( can develop superstitious believes about places and humans )
- Stress, irritability and anger
- Nervousity, over exited, depression
- ADHD or the other point " low activity "
-Numbness
- A sense of that everything is unreal ( not connected to reality or the body )
- Lost contact with themselves " out of the body "
- Psycic symtoms as dissines, nausea, headache, racing heart.

Shock shall not be mastered alone. It takes a professional to release and get the overwhelming energy out of the body. It is the nervous system that are in action with " fright or flight " - but in the time afterwards there is nowhere to run. There is just the trauma taking away everyday life and all energy after a while. The person is battling against painful demons that needs to be treated and cared for with the person close to the person. And it is possible by giving time and peace and ability to master realistic fun and peaceful life goals in the persons life speed and what they can master at the time suffering from trauma. It will drag them good back to reality. Don't awake traumas again. Relax a lot to easen down the nervous system. Reflect on that there is a time before and after the trauma. That the trauma will go away with time and it can be treated with mentally letting the picture of the trauma get small in the mind and visualize that the person suffering throws it away.
After a while the person will get into flow again and connect to reality like all other healthy normal persons. It is not a mental diagnose.

How To Treat All Mental Ill Healthy Fast

All psyciatric disease can be treated fast with basal first aid treatment that recovers less medication and after a period no medication at all. It is to work beyond the ego and not do classification only after the dialogue in the patient. There are a lot of thoughts and feelings that work in a patient and trig the nervous system to work faster and cause severe stress, shown in a lot of symptoms as sleeping less or a lot, anger, anxiety, sadness, grieve, depression, feeling tensed, nervous etc. There are a huge list of symptoms occurring every day. There need to be written down a plan for the patient by a interview of the patient about all the patient lives for and his or hers dreams for life. It needs to be worked with a life plan. That gets the patient ready to go for his or hers goals in life and working for achieving optimal health. To only get this formed down in a plan and someone to help the patient can do that the patient get spirit and recover. You don't need to keep them in hospitals for a long time. Some patients for a period over years. All can recover by getting good food, water, enough sleep and exercise. But that is not enough only. You need to work with the nervous system by working with the mind to find time to relax from all troubles. To get time outs where the patients have time to explore what in his or hers imagination and dreams is the best thought to have. You can chose what you want to think about. It is to learn the patient control over the mind in a personal free way. That they learn to focus on what really is their dreams. And it don't need to be the best person in the world. But the person the patients imagine they can be and go for that with realistic plans.
To essen down a nervous system that has been overworking maybe for years before the symptoms on mental illness occurred can take time. But by good environment and nurses that knows that just a hug or that someone holds you're hand and help you to find meaning can easen down the nervous system. The nervous system works on the whole body and it works fast. Only one good thought on what ever it can be from a pet to someone you love to a favorite hobby can get the nervous system to stabilize and get you're mind into flow and then you're mind function optimal.
The technique to treat the nervous system back to optimal health and behavior is done by good communication on a free way to all what the patient are and show interest in the patient that they want meaning and recover from illness. It is easy done with the right persons. And to stabilize the body works also on the mind it stabilize together with the body.
I am writing a book about this and write better and with more words in Norwegian to develop skills in health care workers to work for stabilization of the nervous system it get all the body into harmony and the patient get a normal behavior and can get better than before with teaching to the right life skills. Many people have had it so bad in life that they never learned to focus on what is the main things in life for them and just go after impulses and easy way out solutions. That causes stress after a while and leads into illness in different diagnosis. It is possible to treat a patients away from diagnose and medication by giving the best basal health care and teach them ready to function in their own life so they can reach their dreams.
I am a product of this treatment and are cured and all healthy and highly function again in life. So never give up to anyone suffer, and family can help out in a huge way by developing nurse skills by reading literature and treat the patients always as themselves not someone it is pity on or never manage a thing. That gets them into a role they don't want to have. And to long in that role can create a patient. There is always a solution and when you lose hope and believe - remember that God is there. To pray is better than meditation and gets you in contact with a force of love that never gives you up. If you only believe as little as a mustard seed - that is the smallest seed of all - it is enough to start believing. Have a great day and a good life :-)

The Snowman

This is my own snowman music box. I have not taken away all christmas decorations and love this snowman so much that it keeps me alway cosy and remember to a time when all was magic and things were like a dream when every opportunity was possible and nothing stopped me from dreaming. I remember the snow and the christmas season like a fairytale that never ended and here in Norway we can play in the snow for hours bought children and adults. Snow is magic because every snowflake shows a mysterious creation that all are different and very beautiful. I miss the snow this year. It has just snowed a little bit this year and now the ground is bare and the colurs a bit grey in the landscape. But it is always time to go into cosy memories and dreams of something so easy as snow. It is a dream coming true this year i know. But when i don't know. To remember and see all the happy faces and stay inside and have a good warm time. I put on the snowman music box in-between and have to tell all that it is never to late to get a good childhood no matter what the problems are by sitting down and rediscover what was the happy times and if you want to write them down so you have something to tell children and you're grandchildren. Life is a journey and we have a mind that function good in memories. We don't need to always stay in front of the time and goals to reach a superior destiny because all this need a lot of work. Sometimes the best dreams is to rediscover what you once was, a cosy little loved person with a lot of strength and dreams. I invite you to a movie i loved as a child. And i see it with childhood magic every christmas, and sometimes when i feel down. Because it is so peaceful and filled with love and give you mentally good pictures that dreams comes true in something so easy to build as a snowman.

New Psyciatric Treatment

I am very kind in my mind and read a lot to get healing every day to recover from everyday trouble. Life gives you always challenges and some get into troubles that goes on the vulnerable places in the mind. I prefer to call it soul. Because we have a general understanding of life in seeking love and wanting love and getting love. It is a main goal in humans and the often highest wish in a persons life. But things do not always turn out the way you think. And life can give you wisdom and learning you never thought you should have. I worked at home based nursing as a nurse because it gave the most challenges and i had to lead myself very secure and be in trust and control all the time. You need to think fast. But i got ill after two years of a lot of overworking and personal problems with a man that used me for all it was worth. When someone you trust use you in every way reality can get disturbed and get you into a unreal life. You don't believe the things happening but you have to face reality. I got back to work and studied psychology a lot. It is for me a main goal that all humans shall learn psychology and that we all have a mental health to protect because nearly everybody in the world and every person get signs on mental illness once or several times in their lives. I did not get a diagnose before many years had gone. And i was hospitalized by bad treatment a lot and read all the literature being used today in the psychiatric field. And understood by my own experiences and on my education and practical learning that psychiatric treatment today in the world is very wrong. It takes so long time for a person to heal and it cost the society billions every year.
It is possible to treat a patient or someone with symptoms by treating the body and the nervous system. It is a different idea than Freud and Ego with all the classifications in what ego is. And people working has to know the literature and the procedures good to not treat and pastiest wrong and cause severe trauma. I believe by nursing the body by a natural way treating the nervous system and get the mind to function again by the mental state flow miracles can happen and patients can develop skills to function better than ever before by learning new life skills. It is possible to be better than before even if you have had a mental illness. It is only a crisis and there is always a solution. I write a book. A very large book in how to treat a patient to optimal health and meaning of life by educating nurses and doctors to treat by new prosedures that works better than interpreting the ego and not talk to the patient. We communicate all the time and have different interests. And my experience is that getting older is more fun than i thought it would be. I have it more exiting now than when i was younger. And read a lot to get wiser and more ready for a life in the real world and not the world you imagine exists when you are young and all you're dreams are optimistic and a ray of golden sun over it. It is the glory days. Mine are over and i face now the world in 2015 with all the sever traumas in the society that reflects over on the individuals, families and society and also the worlds economy. To treat to optimal health and not defensive and peaceful behavior all the time can change the world by people facing the dark side of life can come back stronger with mental exercise and rest. Because yu learn all you're life and every day and new experiences forms you to a better person taking time to think over it. I am done with all my thinking and ready to write nurse theory about new treatment that transforms miracles by using common sense and good high quality in nursing and giving the patient the best. Educating them in life and giving them nurse skills to protect and race care of themselves. It is possible to form a diagnose in a person by bad treatment. I hope that everybody can read the book for a better and including society that works for a better and healthy world where all can be their true self.